three-sixty rev;

2009-08-16T16:55:00.008+08:00

"and now I'm running and screaming"

Hello world! :D

I've not been here in a really long time. Oh wells.

Its been a not so busy week, but man oh man, what a retarded math test.

I need to study for Physics and Bio. One, because physics is my beautiful disaster, okay not so much the beautiful part, but definitely the disaster part. And bio, well bio's bio and I like it no matter what, so I'M NOT GONNA SCREW MY BIO TEST UP ALONG WITH ALL THE CHEM, MATH AND EVERYTHING ELSE! So yeah.

I guess I've been really tired. And kinda restless and all.

And maybe mood swingy, and all. Oh wells.

I'm happy still :D :D :D AND I wanna studyyyy (Not really, but I wanna do well!!!) Man, now there's no more assignments I've an awful lot of Propsy stuff to do ): *Sighs* When will this ever end, I wanna retire nowwwwww :D

Training's been irregular, but I likeeeee. Challenging but yet not taxing! I hope I'll like it for the rest of the I don't know how long track will last. Yeah. Oh wells!

Hmm, I really can't seem to get myself on the right studying track. Its been sleepiness all the time ): That's kinda bad. Oh wells. I hope things work out for my EOYs!!! ITS MY O LEVEL CERT. Manz, O levels look so good now. They won't look at your shitty assignments/tests. But then again, its a one off thing, so if you screw up, you really screw up bad. So, yeah.

Okay, guess I should go do physics/bio or something. Ciao!

; JAIME!

i hope you're happy, i know i am.

2009-08-07T22:53:00.008+08:00

"i guess i need my life to change"

I'm tired and perplexed and flustered, and I think this is really the calm before the storm. I shouldn't have just gone off like that, but I'm all of the above, and I don't really need all that now. My fault okay, I was gonna be late anw. And it doesn't really give the right impression and portrayal of the truth. And there's a reason why we're here not there so, that's all I'm gonna say.

Ah, I really didn't like today. And aye, whatever, LONG WEEKEND!

Haha and...

Tskkkk, its not here anymore. Happy now? CENSORSHIP IS EVIL!!!!

Okay byeeee!

; JAIME!

2009-07-29T23:16:00.003+08:00

"making things feel way too tragic"

:D Haven't been here in quite awhile.
Its HELMSMAN which means SLACK, but not really D:
There's tonnes of work. And I'm EXHAUSTED for some reason.
Aye, oh wells, at least can rest for a bit.

Let's just hope it doesn't spiral back into that deep black hole where we just got out of. How do things that are on the outskirts and barely in our lives affect us?
Tell me if you find out, I'd like to know too!

TRAINING TOMORROW. Hohoho, mixed feelings x1millioninfinity.
(I hope it works well, finallyyyyy)

; JAIME!

2009-07-19T23:16:00.004+08:00

"you're gonna burn the city down right now"

New week coming up ahead!
Everything's gonna be mighty fine.
Rainbows are only formed after the rain. And without the rain there's no rainbow. So we need to suffer just sometimes to enjoy the true beauty of whatever's coming. And even the sour(skittles) can make something so pretty. What not neutral people? Positivity!

'Positive charges can't be gained or loss, its how much negativity that causes a difference.'

Its gonna be a great week, and I'm gonna do my best.
I know I can :D

Good luck to everyone, we'll make it through this hectic week!

Woohooooooooo!

; JAIME!

2009-07-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

"your heart on your sleeve"

I need sleep.
So ultra exhausted. I'm damn drained and and and. Given up.
I don't understand, but you know what. I don't need to.
4 letters of a very interesting word look very very appealing to me.

Whatever.

Its been an okay friday.
I need to sleep & I need a nice long holiday.

But its okay Jaime, you're break will come soon.
And then, it'll look more appetising :D

But my life's pretty good as it is,
Sooooooooooooo, I'm happy. :D

; JAIME!

2009-07-16T22:17:00.006+08:00

"and the record keeps playing the same old song"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZZI :D

Hope you had a great day! :D :D :D :D
Seeyou tomorrow!

Told you so, its just a long long long road of hurdles, I just got over the last one!!!!!! We screwed now!
Holy mama all I can say is...Here we go again!

You're right, it'd be horrid to say that. And I take that back. My friends are really important to me and its okay even if I don't get everything, they're all I need. Thanks for helping me realise that. :D

Its been an awfully tiring week, I just wish the weekends were longer.

; JAIME!

2009-07-13T19:15:00.004+08:00

"You were meant to go out and get her (it)"

(well honestly, this is what life's getting to look like. One hurdle after another, never ever ending. And the problem is, I'm barely even crossing the first one)

I'm appalled. I can't say anything. I wanna move far far away from here to a dimension where things actually work our properly. Thanks, thanks alot for hiding us away and throwing us into the bin once we're inconvenient. THANKS ALOT.

I really don't understand why this is going on. Screw it, screw this. Wtfreak, its not fair. And so much for teaching us values. Go and screw yourself man.

Well, I'm not giving up. Cause I may not know if that's what I really want, but I do know this comes pretty close. So, I'm not giving up. I'm gonna go out and get it, even if the world is going to swallow me whole, at least I tried. So watch me, you disgusting irresponsible thing.

They say diamonds go through great pain to become what they are. They say humans are alike. If it is so, I hope this is painful enough. I'll work harder and I know I'm determined. So even if you're gonna put a million obstacles in front of me, I'm gonna figure something out.

I hope something intervenes, cause nobody seems to be giving a bloody damn.

(I'm just pissed, I'm okay. I need to say something, somewhere)

// Its been an okay monday I guess. I need to work harder!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I will, right after I get my brain back in place with a swim or a run. Ciao!

; JAIME!

2009-07-12T14:21:00.002+08:00

"gone away, are the golden days"

Dear Jaime,

I can't say you didn't see this coming. And I won't say you're new to this. After all, its been like that since primary, secondary and now now. Your mum complains about how your dad works, well, you've not learnt a think from that I see. You're just stupid and retarded, because you're too afraid something will screw up if you actually try to put your foot down. So, you're contended with what happens and you just let it take over. Well, that isn't wrong, but I guess you could do better. But you know, that's your fate I guess. More or less you should be used to it, so I hope you're getting better at this. And I wonder if it'll ever work out the way you want it to. But I doubt. Try as you may, its really the way things are gonna be, for the next millenium at least. Good luck, live with it.

Yours truly,
Jaime
(At least you have onethree.)

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We're doing waitressing! :D
But I still have tonnes of work to do. I'm tired. And its not the lack of sleep. Its the draining sensation you get after a not quite up to standard week at school. Must be the hangover from the holidays, it'll get over soon right? Everything heals with time!

The secret to happiness is to see all marvels of the world, and never to
forget the drops of oil in the spoon.

The key is to ENJOY while making sure you don't forget the RESPONSIBILITIES. They never said anything about achieving too many jaime. Don't be greedy. It'll work out, you're following your personal legend. It'll work out if you put enough into it :D And I believe you will.

Don't give up don't give up, it'll work out okay! Smile like there're kids around, and think like nothing could ever go wrong. You don't have to have it your way, or the way that benefits you, cause the truly great one waits for the right moment to come out and shake the glitter off, to show what he's really made of.

Okay, now time to get cracking. Test work and more work. Come on come on! :D

; JAIME!

2009-07-11T16:40:00.003+08:00

"take a sad song and make it better"

I have decided to blog :D WOW I KNOW!
See, must be like our overseas counterparts who update their blogs regularly, and provide entertainment for all. Good plan jaime, good plan.
Nyeh, term start = little sleep = tired. I want the holidays back, so I can sleep for many many many hours at a time, which is really, most ideal. But oh wells, at least there's the wonderful one three and there's the fact that we get to learn things & HAVE PHARMACEUTICAL CHEM ELECTIVE & MY ASPIRIN CI! (I really like it, I ain't kidding!) So anyway, what's been up is the severe lack of sleep, econs project & tests (sianz, i hate tests D:)
Its not been a very good week. Well its been quite great playing games with charissa and laughing at vivian, and then doing all the funny things we do. Its fun I guess. (OH I LEARNT SOME SOCCER TRICK!) I just really wish SLEEP wouldn't be such a far away concept. Oh wells.

Its been a bad week cause. BERLIN'S BEEN CANCELLED. And now I've to go to Dubai, India or Vietnam. And the worse part is I might not get to go to the country I want to. Which is really kinda sucky. But ah wells, I'm used to it alr, having things not work out the way it should have. So, whatever. And our 25th anniversary thing is in such a mess too. So go figure. Its okay, at least monday is HEADGEAR DAY :D I finally get to wear my hat that's been under the table for like 5 years or something. OH OH OH & there's PE ON MONDAY! I <3 PE! Its where we get to go run around in the field and end up laughing at each other.

Oh wells. As much as I decided that I should be hardworking like elephant, its been a disaster. So, boohoo. Anyway, I'm trying. I'll try harder next time. I'm going off, byebye see you later palzys, i promise I'll try to blog again soon :D Meanwhile, stay happy!

; JAIME!

2009-06-28T18:22:00.004+08:00

"She'll never notice"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARISSAPANG!!

(now you're older than both me and viviang! :D)

Happy birthday you huge retard, you're the best co-pres ever! Hope you have a goodgreatwonderful birthday! I promise I won't suan you alr (I haven't in a long time lor!) Anw, you're the most hyper person i've seen at night and manzzz, i lovee you much much <3>

School's starting tmrw and my runny nose and throaty throat is not away yet. Sigh. Hope I don't get sent home! D: Anw anw, the week's been pretty uneventful. I stayed at home till wednesday cause I wasn't well. Then double bring it on marathon at kim's, and transformers to celebrate jacinta + tessa's birthdays and then friday was cl and yeah the normal la. What a boring week, stupid swine flu, we'd be in BERLIN(!!!) now if not for you. Oh wells, at least we can pray that we get to go overseas too! D:

Okay, me is going to go. Byebye friendzzzzzzz!

(OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN CHARPANG! KITEFLY SOON!)

Manz, I wanna go to NEW ZEALAND D: (heehee!)

; JAIME! :D

2009-06-19T23:41:00.004+08:00

"cause you wanted to fly, so you gave me your wings"

hello world.
i'm posting again, whooooooooooo!

lesley said to post, and i'm kinda bored so yeah, post. HELLO KIM (you're in it hahaha!)
hmm, holidays have been, well holidays! for once. no training, no review week, just holidays!
its beeen sleeeeeeeeeeeep so much till you bloat up. which is really good considering all those 2/3 am nights and then going to school and using your energy till you could just drop dead. but its fine and dandy cause at least school's a bunch of fun, most of the time anyway.

cl camp's a relief! its overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
not that i didn't enjoy it or anything. but i can't really operate on lack of sleep and well, its like being the sun in a germinating plant. OKAY that was crap. i hope it was fun for everyone :D it was nice being a facil anw :D anyhows, at least it trained my patience! sorry incredibles if i snapped at y'all! i really do <3 you guys, it was just, lack of sleep and a whole lot of other things. a BIGGG thankyou to EXCO(+JON!), INCREDIBLES & the rest of CL.

hmm, this week has seen me lunching sleeping lunching sleeping. its really not my fault i'm on the edge of dying during the term right! need to catch up on that much much you know! i hope i'm more awake next sem. you know what friends, its the last sem in IP ): suckssssss D: means soon we'll join the JC people D: okay not that they are bad, but - mannnn, no more small cohorts and all the fun stuff anymore - not that JC people aren't fun, but its a different ball game altogether. no more catching and rubbish and NO MORE CLASSROOM, nooooooooooooo. (by the way, who has our yellow ball?)

okay this is really random. i think 13's really been one of the best things that have happened to me. i mean, there's less politics here than in IJ! & IJ's a catholic school. okay maybe i'm blind to it, but its really been greaaat fun and manzzzzzzz i'll miss the entire class when we disband D:

ohwells, at least the bulk of the projects are OVERRR and now we'll just have to become muggers so that our transcript doesn't look like shit and people don't come and tell you your results suck and bla bla you're not in o level syllabus so it shouldn't look that way bla bla.

& time and again i realise that my friends aren't the ones people say they'll be; from parties to simple gestures of kindness, from sec2 to ip2. let's just hope it ends out right, somewhat.

next week is study week, which i hope will actually have studying going on! going out with 13(?) & sulin+arielle+clara(I HOPE THIS WORKS OUT) & genhee! (tingyanglin & jocelynloong, when's our outing gonna be? i know t3's out but, haha merlion, esplanade or something? :D)

okay gonna sleep now :D

thank you (you)

; JAIME! :D

2009-05-09T13:22:00.005+08:00

"stop and stare"

haven't blogged in ages! but didn't feel like blogging. so, NOT MY FAULT.

its been like tough times ahead. with this almost invisible sign which i missed, cause i seem to keep getting pissed/sian, with no warning. but at least, if everything fails i still have my family + 08v13 <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 !

and why is it so wrong for ME to get pissed? she gets pissed all the time, and when i get pissed its like i'm in the wrong wth.

get sian + pissed often, but there's still lotsa happy moments, with my co-pres & our janitor & the rest of our 10 girl gang & the rest of the coolio class with retarded classmates. i know i'll miss y'all super much next year D: oh wells.

even if coming to vj i succeed at nothing, at least i know, i had a great time, and the BEST CLASS EVER. :D :D :D

okay i think i will delete this post, soon. i like my blog empty :D

okay lunch time,

/oh & thank you for always being there, pals! CHAUFFEUR!! :D

// okay whatever.
part 2 part 2:

HAS DISAPPEARED :D, wow, where did it go?

prized perception

2009-01-07T00:28:00.005+08:00

"aren't you glad?"

(editted: some parts of this post was deleted)

i'm so tired, i really hope i can survive the whole 2009.
Kia Kaha, Kia Kaha. Don't give up, don't give up.

My resolutions for the year are as follows,
(The lucky 8/the 8 ball! :D)
1) Peservere, don't give up & be positive.
2) Love everyone, no matter how much it'll hurt.
3) Take up every challenge that comes, God gives us what we can cope.
4) Work hard, work towards goals, focus.
5) Stay close to God, be kind to myself & others.
6) Mean everything I do, and do it because I want to.
7) Rest, be rested & face everything like i'm brand new.
8) To keep smiling & to really be happy from within.

Tough times enhance easy times & prepare you for even tougher times.

I am a happy kid, Yes I am.

; JAIME!

Pictures of you,

2008-12-31T18:59:00.002+08:00

"We are the bells that never sing"

Its the end of the year, and it feels like we've not even started this year. Man, so much's changed but so much's stayed the same. I really wouldn't have expected anything that's happened to have happened this year. And similarly, I can't expect what's coming up in the year ahead. So, I just hope that everything's that has happened this year will prepare me for next year & next year will be better than this even though this year was pretty damn good.

This year saw me through lots of changes. IJ to VJ, Track to Cross, Good results to shit results, Con2 to Confirmation year, etc etc etc. The only constant thing is change right, so I guess its all expected. I'm really grateful for all the new friends I've made who without them I wouldn't have had such a great time. (V13 pals! Special mentions go out to CHARISSA VIVIAN SHUMIN & ANNABEL!, CROSS GIRLS! Especially MICH, MICH, AMANDA & JOANN! & the rest of the VIP/VJC peole who've made a difference to my life.) I'm grateful for all the people I've grown closer to, especially Celly, Lizzi, Colin & Rachel! :D I don't know, this year's been different, change and change and change nonstop. I've learnt to adapt and to be adaptable.

Lots of unhappy things have happened & alot of them haven't been used properly to get me to grow yet, but there's the whole of 09 I guess. I know I'm not ready to move off into 2009 yet, but you know, its time. So, oh wells. I just hope 2009 will be a happier & more joyful year, even though that's gotta be pretty hard since the rest of my life has probably been the most joyful one you'll find around already.

I was thinking about how we'd be when we go back to cambodia next year, and I realised that we'd change so so much. You know, I don't really wanna change, but you know its really inevitable, so I guess. Gotta live with it.

Okay, omg i've to go soon! AH! I've enjoyed this year more than I said I did, and I'd like to thank everyone. Thanks for making this year simply great, without you guys it'd be just plain dull & boring. I promise next year will be even better. Together you and me can make a difference! :D

; JAIME! (for the last time this year!)

RACHEL! :D

2008-12-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

RACHEL NADIA GOH! :D :D :D

This post is dedicated to Rachel Nadia Goh because she asked me to post about her first! Rachel is the bestest facil you can ever have for AYD, hahaha. She made my day/week/month, i don't know what when she told me about poopoo head once, and makes me laugh and laugh! :D Rachel's a great person & a wonderful person to assume as your role model if you need one, and she's just great. She's sincere & she's entertaining. :D And, now I feel like an advertising firm. "BUY RACHEL TODAY!"

Anyways, you're the best Rachel! Don't walk out of my life!
(& don't burn the house down!) :D

; JAIME! :D

Guess I need(ed) my life to change

2008-12-25T22:58:00.007+08:00

"a little more luck than a little bit"

And have yourself, a merry little christmas now.

So so much's happened in the recent weeks! I'm a changed person, at least I hope that I'm a changed person and will remain a changed person. I know I've said this many many times, but this time I really wanna mean it. Really. I want to mean every bit of the word 'CHANGED'.

Mainly, its been CAMBODIA. Omg, its the best thing ever. No matter what Godma said about the school not needing help and all, I really think its helped me alot & no matter how much (or how little) joy we've brought to the kids' lives, its helped me alot to end the year on a high and good note. I don't regret going, its been 10x, 100x better than I expected it to be AND its worth missing OGL training, track camp AND training.

And this is just 3 of my approximately 300 over pictures! :D
The kids are wonderful. Delightful, lovely, cute, adorable, superb, loving and simply the greatest. Linmin/Limin who appears in 2 of the above 3 pictures is absolutely the best, she is the cutest most wonderful primary 2 kid I've ever seen! Of course that's just a teeny bit biased because she's probably one of the few grade 2 kids I interacted with. But you know, you just go and talk to the kids (more like just stand next to them, hold their hands, hug them & carry them, but still!) and you know, you just feel so happy thath subconsciously you're just smiling because you're just so peaceful and happy down in your heart. And you get so attached to them that leaving them is just so hard, and its like you've actually started loving them truly because they are simply people, because you've not been able to have a proper conversation with them, let alone get to know them. It was simply the greatest experience ever, really. Also, in Cambodia I guess I came to terms with the fact that hating people is no way to go, and you know forgiveness just clears everything up. And so, I'm done with hating you & your girl. You've been great travel pals, and yeah. I'm changing, slowly. I promise I won't burn down your house. :D

Thanks and much more thanks to:

COLINCHNG! : haha, thanks for being greatt company, the great bonding and for being oh so retarded singing & crapping, etc! thanks for running around with me looking for the kids and being late with me everytime we were gonna leave. thanks for getting scolded with me by aunty cee! thanks for pretending that money dropped from trees and engaging in those super spastic phone calls & card writing. thanks for the endless photo taking with the too cute to resist kids, thanks for all the retarded kidnapping plans! thanks for everything! :D GREATNESS!

LISSA! : hahaha, YOUUU! thanks for being the only ENGLISH&DRAMA person in our school who I knew considerably well. haha, thanks for being obsessive & biased you were superr funny but super great to work with. thanks for hanging with me & taking photos! thanks for talking to me & being slow and retarded and making me laugh! thanks for being the one in the know and updating me on all the stuffs! thanks for teaching with me, i had a wonderful time! thanks for the time we spent together we've caught up super alot luh! thanks for choosing the kids when I didn't wanna look biased :D hahaha, you've been great! thanks for everything! :D LOVELY

LIZZI! : thanks for hanging around me, reminding me not to be late and all, MAKING ME CRY BECAUSE YOU STARTED CRYING!!! (haha, outburst of emotions) thanks for understanding my nutso takes while explaining to me aunty cee's adultish decisions, thanks for hanging with me, thanks for taking time off your bf to hang with me, thanks for taking in all my pokings, thanks for being awake even though you wanted to sleep, thanks for acting with me (HAHA OMG!), thanks for being there & simply being great! thanks for everything! :D

TT's ENGLISH&DRAMA: omg thanks you guys for putting up with my extreme blurness & everything! thanks for the lessons & the endless joy! thanks claires for nagging & keeping us in line, thanks for the preparation that i didn't do. thanks for working together, thanks for making the trip worthwhile, thanks for everything :D WONDERFUL!

PRIS! : omg omg, thanks for being such a great traveller & roomie! thanks for keeping us on time, thanks for telling me all the gossips, thanks for keeping me company and helping me not be scared, thanks for the plane rides, thanks for taking care with me even when you were arnd jon, thanks for sharing shampoo + soap, thanks for waiting for me, thanks for hanging with me, thanks for making up for my blurness, thanks for getting scolded with me when we were late and all, thanks for everything! :D MARVELLOUS!

MARS!: haha, thanks love for hanging around and checking in on me once in awhile, thanks for being the dramatic & comical person you are, thanks for being in our sharing group, thanks for laughing with me, thanks for being there, thanks for catching up, thanks for keeping me company, thanks for being around throughout & being less blur than me, thanks for all the bus rides & all, thanks for your sarcasm, thanks for everything! :D MAGNIFICENT!

JON!: thanks for the plane ride (and for telling everyone about the backward flying plane!), thanks for being entertaining, thanks for keeping me & pris safe, thanks for all the concern, thanks for hanging around, thanks for checking in on us, thanks for waking us up, thanks for keeping us in check & on time, thanks for being super animated & telling us stories, thanks for everything! :D TERRIFIC!

AUNTY CEE!: thanks for keeping allllll of us in check & making sure we're not about to do something we regret! thank for keeping us safe, thanks for loving us, thanks for planning this wonderful trip, thanks for allll your care & concern, thanks for being the great teacher you are & thanks for everthing! :D FANTASTIC!

FRANCES!: thanks for travelling with me & teaching our kindy class together! thanks for the photos! thanks for everything, looking forward to next year! :D FABULOUS! (too lazy to continue)

EVERYONE ELSE!: thanks for making the trip a memorable & simply lovely one, i loved it & remember it lotssssssssssssssssssss! :D love you guys, i really do! :D SUPERB!

GOD!: thanks for giving me this great chance, thanks for letting me come full circle (past the awkwardness for some, and all through the hatred), thanks for being there when I needed you, thanks for blessing the people that needed to be blessed, thanks for letting me forget everything in singapore so i could just immerse myself, thanks for giving me a great trip & thanks for letting me learn so much, i can't end my thanks for you so, thanks for everything! :D PERFECT!

Okay, so then caroling. I guess I've not been as attached to caroling as I used to be cause this holiday saw me getting really really busy. But nonetheless, I enjoyed caroling lots & really really thought it was great. Such a pity its come & gone, just like everything that's happened in the past few years. ): End of caroling also marked Rachel, Mary, Fel Mok, Ben Neo & Mel's leaving from CL ): And oh man, that's really kinda sad. ): I'll miss them lots, and CL just won't be the same ): Pleaaseeee don't go. And anyhow, new responsibilities which I really don't wanna take up, but oh well: A leader takes up whatever she gets & does it well, even if she may not want it or may not think she can do it; a leader believes in herself. (PSL camp thought me lots :D)

Light up, omg haha. It was a long & tiring day but oh wells, it turned out not bad after all. Last minute and all but we had a great cast, so yay, good job you lot!

Xmas shopping! Stressful, tiring and pain. But fulfilling, I did everything in a day! AND i tried my best to buy things people'd use so, YEAH. I tried! Had fun anw, bonded with fel, ben & steph!

Midnight mass! haha, this year's was emptier. i mean our pew it was, colin, lennard, lizzi me and barry. which is much less compared to last year, but good anw. great mass!

Christmas! fun, joyful, happy, over. hahaha. i'm so tired really! Love love love, the best thing you could ever get. thanks for everything up above! :D

Okay now, i've training tmrw, party tmrw, banner painting tmrw, ice-cream buffet on saturday, lunch with cross girls on saturday, dinner on saturday, party with the corderio's on sunday & zoo outing on tuesday! good grief, i'm so busy ):

I'm a changed person, I'm a changed person, I'm a changed person.
Responsible, Disciplined, Obedient, Positive & Loving. Imma child of God, I needa start behaving more like one. I'm taking up whatever you give me & I'm gonna be something good, for God, for the world & for the best kids in the world :D

Goodnight pals, MERRY CHRISTMAS!
(omg, i still miss cambodia ): )

;JAIME!

For my momma,

2008-12-11T15:50:00.002+08:00

"Could you hurry sir?"

:D Just here to say I'm back in Singapore from Brisbane. And am healthy and safe.
Going to cambodia on Monday! :D HIPHIPHURRAY!
Dear Kids, Jaime loves you no matter what, please don't hate me! :D
Lalalalalala! Jaime's real happy cause training (for me) was rewarding! :D

Jaime's thought everything through and has finally found proper reasons for the things i've put on hold or more specifically, 'wait' rather than 'yes'/'no'! Which is kinda good, cause jaime says so. The cross team's been naughty :D But i love the team :D We're the toughest girls in VJ! OH AND CHINESE PROJECT IS GOING TO BE SUPERRR FUN! Vivian, charissa, annabel & shumin make anything fun! Even Bio was a joy to do, haha volleyball interruption & pizza chats! :D LALALALA. This year's been a good year, y'know! :D and you know what, today's 364 days since a horrible boy did a horrible thing. No i've not been counting, its just, dates. So yes! One year ago you little twerp who ate up my ego and confidence in any of the half of the world of your type. Oh wells, at least over the last year I've gotten closer to my not so close friends and I've got much much much better friends such as the above mentioned, my boyfriend(s) {haha lizzi + celeste} and manyyyyyyyy more. haha!

Okay, this is a random post which has nothing to do with anything. So, goodbye!

; JAIME!

if you jump,

2008-11-27T19:02:00.002+08:00

"i will jump too"

WOOHOOOOOOO!
I'm flying off in a few hours and its superrrr exciting luh!
Omg omg omg, SINGAPORE AIRLINES(SQ) !!! Yay yay yay! I'm excited!
Will be gone from the 28th - 5th friends!
I think my phone will be inactive, I think! So, if you needa contact me, I might not reply as fast as I usually do! (I reply quite fast right, haha either that or I don't reply at all :X )
So yes friends, miss me, but don't miss me too much!!
Loveeeee you guys, reaalllly!!

On the other hand, I'm missing trial run & farewell! D: have fun everyone doing trial run + farewell! Oh wells! I'm missing out alot, lucky never miss Day Of Fun too. Which btw, I thought wasn't very fun! ): Sorrrrrry friends! We never try hard enough. Hope IPO will be better!!!

Okay, so I've to go pack my bag and stuff now! Seeyou online buggers! :D
Don't missssss me (too much) ! hahahahahahaha!
If I die, y'all can fight for the things in my room! But I don't wanna die, not yet at least!

OKAY BYE.

2.4192m of happiness! :D (don't forget that!)

; JAIME! :D

BRISBANE HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

off the ground,

2008-11-19T23:54:00.003+08:00

"what it takes i don't care"

ain't nothing i've done this year should get me this kinda rewards.

i'm super thankful for the 2 days of joy and laughter and such wonderful people around me! :D really don't know what i've done to get all these, serious! i've been such a lazy failure. but then, got so many people around to pick you up, to keep you going. to keep you smiling and to tell you that you're not as horrid as you think you are. really, what did i do to deserve all this?

really don't know why i get all these especially after my year of skepticism. no silences and all. why why why, i don't even deserve this, i don't even really need it! but its good anyway, thanks God, much love!

anw, training's been superrrr good this 2 weeks. like. wooh, finish workout you know!!! i'm gonna do better next year. this i promise you jaime maria tan. no slacking, no being lazy! its good this year, cause someone up there decided that you should get good things. and now, its your turn to decide that you should do good things to repay the someone up there, yupp!

i'm gonna stop hating him & his girl.

okay this is a really really random post, i'm just happy! i mean after almost not going! i had lots and lots of fun. i mean, really!!!

okay, i'm gonna sleep noww, or soon. night!

; JAIME!

just look over your shoulder,

2008-11-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

"gotta be strong"

good call jaime, really, goooood call.
you are going to phnom penh on 15 dec with frances, michelle, jon and pris.
oh gooooooood gooooooooood job, you're going to have so much fun, you'll cry from start to finish. seriously. ohmymama. ): i need 100000001 people to send me off, really!
and i'm not going to sleep the night before, so i can sleep in the plane.
what a fantastic plan right. i mean, frances & michelle are great, but what on earth am i going to talk to them about right? i need to go research on what to talk to people you're not familiar with.

ohmygoodness, my patience is wearing off.
dear god, i know you're doing this to train something in me. please give me the strength to not stranggle [insert appropriate name(s) here] in an attempt to stop crying or something. (in any event i do end up crying) i really pray that the whole cambodia trip won't be a screw up, and that i'd have a more positive attitude toward it soon. and also, please let me find some inspiration on the plane/trip to stop planning my career in the toilet industry, because vj killed all my hopes of becoming a doctor by telling me through my eoys that i'm stupid. book stupid anw.
amen.

okay, i need to be more positive.
i am happy for psls, its been alot of fun and i know we're gonna do great.
i am happy for all my friends (who i do not have the urge to stranggle), they've been ever so nice to me writing letters (thanks 13 pals!) and comforting me and trying to cheer me up!
i am happy for being in vj even though i complain 24/7, its been alot of fun and yeah, i'm proud to be a victorian, even though i'm probably gonna be the first cleaner from there.
i am happy for my family simply because they're family.
i am happy for [insert name(s) here], cause God sent you/them here to fill that space and to tell me that a bad person, isn't the only person around!
i am happy for cl and for confi class, cause its been the only thing keeping my faith up.
i am happy for my hands and legs and being alive, because nick vujicic has no limbs, and can still change the world.
i am happy for God who cares, and gives me this nice nice world to live in.

confi in X days, i hope i'm ready to get confirmed!
better attitude girl!!!

; JAIME!

Refuge in the time of war,

2008-11-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

"time of war"

Day of recollection & reconcilliation was good. Cry until eyes pokeye!
(DONT THINK SICK JOANNE!!!)
It was gooooood anyway! Yupp yupp. Recollected and confessioned.
But not really ready for confi. I've one week, at least.
Omg, rachel goh is super spastic to talk to!

Anyway, good luck francesca(s)!!! Have fun at your confis!
(even though you people won't see this, haha)

; JAIME!

Attitude IS Altitude

2008-11-07T18:25:00.002+08:00

"bound bound bound and rebound!"
OH NINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PSLs WE KNOW WE'RE FINE!!

It was such a great training camp thing, it really met the expectations we wrote down you know. Life changing :O, exciting, fun, insightful, etc! It was wonderfull! Alvin & Andrew & (occasionally) Jermaine were great great WONDERFUL coaches/facils and its really more than 100000000 times better than IJ's General Leadership Programme! Ohmygee, it was so so so good la, if I had a chance, I'd have slept earlier on wednesday night so thursday could play more! And I'd like to go through it all over again if we could! Wonderful camp, wonderful psls!!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

You know what, I'm gonna be more positive from now on. No more cashiers, lifeguards, toilet cleaners or road sweepers from now on. I'm gonna LEAD myself well and i'm gonna stop talking in class since the teachers don't enjoy my bubblyness! And I'm gonna remember to lead!!! Cause what do leaders do? They lead! Bound bound bound and rebound! I learnt so so much, from communication skills to picking yourself up to persuasion to working in a team to planning and to just being yourself doing what you think you should do that'd benefit everyone!

Monday was ultra uber super extra fun! We played games and zomg funnnnn! We hid/hung shoes (duh!) and yeah! And the best thing was that all the games we played had meanings and all behind them, like you know, deep insightful meaning! It wasn't just all fun and no work makes jaime a stupid girl. So yeah, it was ultratastic!!!! The bomb game with all the spastic time things and all as well as the caterpillar game where group B was super unfairly treated by the disgusting chairs and (not!) intimidated by group A's very irritating chants, haha!

Tuesday was greaaat la! We went out of school to Kranji War Memorial to reflect for ourselves. The people were super noble and fearless to fight a losing war, but nonetheless, they were great! And helped us become what we are today! We had to try and give up our most precious things which were superrrrrr hard to give up!!! But yesyes, good experience anyway. My gravestone thing is superrr lohsoh, with a lot of rubbish, teehee! Oh and Andrew said the world lacks courageous leaders cause all the courageous people died. We need to be brave and just step foward and do our best, yozzzxzxz!!! Okay, right. Then we went to causeway for lunch at the foodcourt. BUT, we had to go up to a random stranger and talk to her/him/them and find out about them. Jordana and I ended up talking about ourselves, but it was interesting! Yimeng and Clarence were superrr funny! "what's your mother's surname?" and "hen yuan, hen yuan!" So yeah, we went back to school reflected and yupp. Went to TM to eat (Like where the hell is that right!) People who live near me, we can take 81 then change to 854 to come home or 72 then 854. HAHA.

Wednesday! The shoe day and the yitong&qinghui&bernice-less day! ): That day was about communications and persuasion and all. We had to get our shoes from one huge heap and you know, RISH was the only noble one who thought of our safety. Leaders gotta be others before self! We watched part of braveheart FLASHHH, and zomg, his speech was quite something! We talked about quite a bit that day, yupp! Okay so, we went off to suntec to eat & watch movie! Watched quantum of solace, which was kinda no link-ish, but 1000x better than Max Payne, eurghh! Yupp, then we went to Carl's jr to eat, while amy and i shared a subway. zomg, she eats so little. And eating with her = disaster. Laugh until my water splurts. Thousand apologies, i know its sick! So yeah, everybody took train home, and gahhh, suannage. Nevermind!! I got home superrr fast that day anyway.

Thursday! ZOMG, why was everyone so early! ): Anywayy, we went for Nick Vujicic's talk. AND OMG LA! He's no hands nor legs nor arms, and he has done more than any of us probably have, and he's totally changed the world! Why when I have hands and legs, keep restricting myself and not believing in myself. I can do anything I set my mind too right? He's mind blowing, he's so so awesome la! How can you find the HOPE to go on after such a 'disability'. But weaknesses can be changed into strengths, yes siree! So yeah, prom people went off, and we went to boy's brigade camp site for camp! Lunch then reflections (I LOST THIS REFLECTION CARD!!! CRY!):) And then yupp, we went for session, which was effectively planning a game. Our game was kinda screwy, but fun anyways! The toilet game was superr fun! Great job everyone! Orientation's gonna be a blast!!!!! I enjoyed myself. So after the games we went to hear/perfor Alvin, Andrew & Jermaine play/sing/perform! We had pizza and braveheart showed. Braveheart started at midnight, so we were really tired and Qinghui, CHARISSA(HAS NOT RANDOM GUYED YET, SO,) KKKKKKKKKKKK, and I fell asleep and woke up at 3. When it ended -.- Like yes wth right. So yeah, it was 3 and prom comm was not back yet, they so poor thing right! We were waiting for Jordana & Bernice to play! But since they weren't back yet, we decided to go sleep first! When they came back the little kids came out to play and TOOTHPASTEATTACK added to the already super smelly DEOATTACK!!! Hahaha, sorry SSBC, unforeseen circumstance!!! Anyway, it was really funny, but the guys got angry, so WE'RE REALLY SORRY ):! So yeah went to sleep, woke up half asleep had breakfast and sessions! PPPPP(Position, permission, productivity, personal development, personhood). GREAT GREAT LA! Oh, the exco and classes and all got out! :D I'm 09v11 BLAHHHHHH! But nevermind, have kim to watch show with! TEEHEE oh and joanne to dirtify our minds! Congrats Bryan & Lynn! :D:D:D Be great heads & vice heads! Okay anyways, we had lunch at great world, there were no movies so went home after that. Jordana & I are J alliances so, no suannage for each other. However charissa gets ALL of it. HAHAHAHA, unless you find a random guy...!!! So we came home and I slept and slept, and now I'm here and going for CL in...soon, yupp!

ITS BEEN A BLAST!!! I TOTALLY LOVEEEEE 09 PSLS!!!
Great week, greater ones ahead!!!
I'm gonna study and be hardworking and TRAIN, work first, everything else, LATER!
You know how i started off thinking that I really wasn't meant to be part of the team and all, after the whole camp thing, I feel more, PSL-ish and more right, THANKS GUYS! And I didn't know my spasticness & crazily loud rubbish could be good. Thanks la teachers for saying I'm disruptive in my helmsman report, MY FRIENDS SAY ITS GOOD OKAY, PIGS!!!!! (okay, i don't mean it. :D)

OMG I FORGOT! SAW FRANCESCA + MARS + COURTNEY TODAY!!! Haven't seen Francesca since youth day. Misssssss you luh! Will try to make your confi!!!

Lovee you all, really! I MEAN IT!!!

; JAIME!

its gonna be the end of me,

2008-10-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

"nothing's ventured, nothing's gained"

symposium prep day one.
HOHO JAIME THE GREAT NO NEED TO SLEEP TONIGHT!
bring in the coffee yozzzz, i am so freaking screwed!
my to do list is superr long and its almost the hols la! ):
i wanna sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep!

anyways, its been a pretty funny day.
i blame charissa, she's always making me laugh la!
her fault we see [insert object here] and laugh right.
check dna and see la! its HERRRRR, not the good jaime! :D
so yeah, lots of things to do, and not much time. GOODLUCK YOZZ!

cambodia cambodia cambodia!
I HAVE ZERO TIME NOW.
everything also cambodia! buttt, must be committed right?
yes yes yes. its gonna be lots of fun.
& the biggest sacrifice will be being friendly to those you wanna eat.
oh wells, since i can't lie to save my soul. i'd better start being nice to them from the bottom of my heart (eurghh!)
oh wells, forgive & forget, love to regret. (haha!)

okay, i'm here to free my brain from being screwy. :D
i want to drink juice! ):
oh dearest [iNsert Name here] please give us a show to watch tmrw!
teeeheee! :D kim and i get bored out of our minds in the bus.

i've gotta do my confi thing too.
should i even get confirmed in the first place? ready, prepared?
i sincerely hope so. how am i supposed to know if i will keep to this?
how can i ensure i'll be committed to being faithful always?
i reallly don't know. but we gots to have faith. hohump.
anyhow, i've to write the reflectionny thingy. must rack brains. now.
to you: if you want what you asked for, you gotta show me.
my favourite word's still 'no'! :D but anything in between can be 'yes' (:
in addition to cambodia btw, i'm going to BRISBANE :D:D:D
yesss! low exchange rate = shopping spree!
however, 'm training go byebye now ):
lets just hope i don't get affected!
I WANNA DO WELL NEXT YEARR AHHHH!

okay, gao bie le!
i'm gonna do my stuff! seeyou!

; JAIME!

Everything will change,

2008-10-25T15:31:00.004+08:00

"but love remains the same"
(yeah right!)

i have piles of things to do.
and i am here slacking! woohoo, great job jaime!
at this rate, we all know who is going to become a cashier, don't we?

was bloghopping and OMG i realised that yesterday was last day of school for lower sec!
dear dear jaime, its been one full year since you cried your heart out outside R206, because it sucked so bad to leave your dear 2/1 friends and the whole track team! and dear dear jaime, its been about 1 year since you were ~~knee deep into love~~. mann, that was a horrible time la! but anyways, its been long and now, i'm doing my webfolio. one of the many stupid time wasting purely vjc integrated programme, stupid things. which makes the school ten times more 'elite'. great job jaime! grahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

my mum raised today, top 5 drop till (insert number here), ah well. should've studied harder. shouldn't have left ij in the first place, but nonetheless there're pros and cons. okay maybe leaving ij was an okay choice, but i don't like feeling XXX way about myself luh. stupid school! suu emailed me about what she thinks of ij now, guess i wouldn't like to be there either. but who the hell cares la, there's some sorta love and some sorta comfort there, no? but nevermind, vj's good. WHO wanted to come here? and i've been having lotsa fun. so, kapeesh!

): ): ): next year had better do well. if not, i'd be a complete failure, and might as well have stayed in ij! howells.

its been one complete cycle. another batch coming in after a whole lot of crying, and a whole batch of us going up to ip2. its beeen a quick year! hopefully, we'd do well as ip2s too. hopefully!

oh wells, i'm going back to webfolio, lest i wanna be a cashier! sleepy, tired, sleepy. YES TUESDAY START SCHOOL AT 1245!!!!!!

okay friends, farewell!

; JAIME!

shine your light,

2008-10-21T22:34:00.007+08:00

"he can move the mountains"

This post is taken down and transporeted somewhere else due to personal reasons. It was posted on 21.10.08 at about 11pm. Go figure!
When you try looking for something, you'd never find it.

; JAIME!
& finally i feel good about myself for finding somewhere to relocate what was here.(:

ACT1V8(ACTIV8!)

2008-10-19T22:01:00.006+08:00

"your grace is enough"

i don't need great grades, or fast timings.
i don't need a perfection, i don't need pleasure.
your grace is enough, yes your grace is enough for me. :D

WHOOOOOO ARCHDIOCESAN YOUTH DAY(!AYD) ROCKETS!!!!!
it was WHOA. like seriously!!
great fun, great God, great experience! :D
thank you everyone who organised it manzzz!

it didn't feel long and draggy or anything, it was just fantastic!
IPOD everyone IPOD! (haha, elise!)
I PrayOfferDo. The coolio bishop from Philipines mann!
and the super cool drama ministry (MARIAN CAN DANCE!!!)
'I've got soul & I am a soldier for Christ!'
and the dance ministry! WHOA, receive the power yozzzz!
truly, God is alive! :D whoa, best praise & worship ever!
usually p&w for me's just fun. but it was like, whoa, really!
fantastic experience luh! gonna be more active, gonna OFFER more!
gotta PRAYOFFERDO! :D Yes yes yes!
I<3ayd!
"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." ACT1V8!
activate the holy spirit yoz! :D
i've got soul and i am a soldier for christ

~

Friday was biennale! :D
biennale was great, though i was really really sian ): but it was fantastic!
i liked "i am not expensive" and "blackfield" which were in the same room!
oh and the ones in the last last also, like "private moon" and "hair salon" and "address" too
you can go look at charissa's blog where the pictures are uploaded!
i've the extra guide which sakif kindly donated since mine got drenched by the drinks
anyone who wants to borrow it is welcome! :D (obviously the ip1s don't need it luh)
'max payne' i tell you is a comedy! really!
you can watch it if you don't mind wasting your money to a show which is worse than 'house bunny', though i haven't watched it, so yupp

~

I know the post is superrrr disorganised. but now, to today
haha got home at 12am after pratas. 7 of us had 22 pratas!i contributed 4 :D
we were reallly hungry after the session y'know!!!
went for auntie's cl and yeah it was cool. GOD BLOCKS GOD BLOCKS!
where art thou god blocks? where art thou foundation?
missing in the vast majority of things
oh wells, we gotta build it back up friends!
oh yeah, most of you won't know about god blocks unless you were there, so if you wanna know what its about, come ask me! :D its hard to type out.
mhm, went to borders and out shopping with my mum. didn't get anything!
then went to have BigO for lunch! SINFUL! but great anyways
went to pick up some free gift that came with the new tv from simlim/funan haha i still don't know where, but yeah
got myself a camera and my ipod charger, obviously parents subsidised
and yeah, came home and took a longggggg nap.

hoho, i ain't bringing my new cam to school, lest the stupid thief comes back
if you are reading this thief, you are one bad person

okayzzz, gonna bathe and do other stuff, seeya

;JAIME!

a little bit more.

2008-10-15T22:12:00.008+08:00

"what it takes, i don't care"

results are all back. like [insert brown word here].
both sciences and arts also not good, siannnnnn.
grades drop drop drop, drop drop drop.
who's fault? my fault. never study hard enough. haii.
training's coming back in full force. kiss my social life goodbye.

): what a year.
came to vj to learn more stuff and to get better cross stuff.
and i accomplished o out of the 2. good job jaime, maybe that's why you feel like this.
and which stupid stupid girl decided to be hopeful and believe in things that were only too good to believe. jaime maria faith tan, the stupid girl who is going to keep getting herself in predicaments and painful situations. why? because i am stupid and/or have no ability to decide.
really wonder why i get all these chances and opportunities to do great things and to be awesome. God's really wasting them on me, i don't even use them well enough.
and maybe that's why i feel like [insert appropriate degree of emotion here]

rachel says don't be too hard on myself, i'm in IP. that's true (for results at least). but how am i supposed to account for my [insert brown word]cross results, my average track performance and my horrible declining responsibilility capability. can't can't can't. i'm not doing my best to fulfill my potential! and being in IP, does it mean i am in some ways handicapped to her, who sometimes i become really jealous of because that girl is going to fricking [insert elite school here] by doing something nobody competes in and has everything i want because she's got the used-to-be perfect [insert word here]and still has that perfect impression because it hasn't ruined her or her heart yet.
oh god jaime, i really hate you so much for being a bitch and for dwelling on this for so long.

i wish i were a werewolf; they heal fast. i wish i were a vampire; they're cold blooded. i wish i were a zombie; they don't feel anything at all. i wish i'd just be contended with myself and let live.

okay i shall stop this unpleasant post. goodbye and farewell. see you when i'm in a better mood.
everyone who's life is turning the right way up, told you there's a fixed amount of happiness in the world, and i'm happy that its your turn to be happy. try as hard as you can to make more happiness in the world.

; JAIME!

over again,

2008-10-11T23:47:00.008+08:00

"i am trying"

i'm sleepy and someone commented on long posts, so short post today (:

lalala, training's started. contradictions, but oh wells. jaime, you must stay (very) strong.

results of some papers are back. disastrous la, one rpaper on the way for chinese! gahhh, chinese is really really hard okay! don't wanna get the rest back, sadly.

prayer session today put me to sleep, i felt guilty. i'm doing winessing for confi, like ohcrap right. and yeah, imh presentation today didn't get that screwed thank God. there's cl tmrw, hope it goes greattt! :D

mhm, so my life's been pretty monotonous, can't expect much right. i'm watching da chang jin now, superrr nice, but i don't have enough dedication to watch it nonstop, so yeah. grahhh, wanna go out!

got the feast day pictures but i'm lazy to post. there's dennis, the hottie (says my mum). so yeahhhhh. okay, i'm sleepy. night night.

; JAIME!

~~you're inconsistent. say one thing & do another. how'm i supposed to believe you & invest anything?~~
/edit: on second thought. i really like i am, nowhere. (:

Definitely maybe;

2008-10-03T22:48:00.002+08:00

"somebody tell me what's wrong"

today was a packed day, really.
farewell assembly, training, prep for openhouse and cl.
i feel terrible for not being participative enough, but arghhhhh.
don't know la, i'm very annoyed okaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
okay, positive attitude, come on jaime, happy days (:
stop judging others because they aren't like you, you're not perfect.

"its normal to be selfish, its also normal to be pissed"
but its not right, is it? we should be nice people, shouldn't we?
argh, this is my fault that i'm in such an awful mood. why jaime why?
am i expecting too much, as usual? of myself, of others, of everything?
yes i am, who's fault? your fault jaime, your fault.

training's started. its tiring! but its good (:
train hard, next year do well. who happy? everybody happy.
papers back next week. goodluck to rpapering jaime. (:
NONONO, must have faith, we will be saved!

sorry no pictures yet, cause the pictures i wanna post are/will
a) not with me (yet!)
b) get me killed (HAHA!); or
c) lost somewhere in my phone or something.

okay, i'm sleepy needa go rest.

/ i hate feeling this way okay. i hate being in bad moods, and i hate being annoyed with people. it isn't fun. really! don't know how people can stand it. so much for positive attitude. -.-

; JAIME!

Its alright;

2008-09-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

"I think God can explain"

FEAST DAY WAS AWESOMEE!
Dressing up was pretty cool I guess. Yuck la, I HATE HATE HATE makeup. My face gets really itchy and cannot scratch la. Eeeeew, don't know how lizzi, celly, rachel, kim and jacintha managed to posess me into getting it on la. Pfft! Mass was disastrous, cause we pissed Lissa's parents off, oh the drama. And then dinner was dinner. Kinda slow, but faster than last year's pictures pictures pictures and then DANCE!
Dance really rocks cause you know when the lights are down and the music blasts, the only thing you're doing is moving and screaming and singing and catching whatever notes you can catch. So we weren't really dancing, but you know, you just forget everything, it just refreshes you whole!

Sunday was ordinary. Late morning, childrens' day stuff, lunch pack room, out with mum and onlineeee :D Dad went for F1, I didn't watch it at home, heh!

Today was today. Lessons, were restless really. Couldn't sit ourselves down. But we tried, so good enough (: Went running with Melissa. Disaster!!! She's soooooo good. And I'm majorly off form, good luck to you Jaime, sleep NOW NOW NOW. Then we had Sakae buffet, and ate over a 100 dollars worth la. WHOA. I didn't have dinner and am still full. Came home bathed. Attempted to pack, watched friends, attempted somemore, used the phone, came online and am going to sleep.

Note to self: Training's starting tmrw yozz, gotta keep moving. Ain't gonna give up, just can't. You gave up today, and there's no moreee. Its for what we all want. Sucess isn't a hard work to walk, but the destination is a one worth living. Come on, you gotta do this. PUSH PUSH PUSH, give it come on, give it to me (:

; JAIME!
(pictures shall come sooooon!)

gotta dance

2008-09-26T00:11:00.004+08:00

"if it takes away the pain"

you don't have to love anyone you don't want to.
you don't have to remember that you were stupid all of sec2.
you don't have to feel hurt everyday of your life because its over, jaime.
you don't have to feel stupid for not having anything.
you don't have to wait on the phone, you don't have to see 1 word replies.
you don't have to do anything. you just need to live.

woooooh. great week. (:
monday cycling, tuesday parkway borders!, wednesday soccer(HAHA, what a joke), thursday shopping at vivo! :D its been pretty awesome. post exam periods are the greatest, really. gonna have to go vanessa's house soon. HOW FUN RIGHT! :D jacintha's house tmrw(i mean saturday), i think? haha, get ready for feast day together. so retarded! but whatevs, fun right?

novena's been good. this is the kind of thing i need to wake me up and need to devote to. i can't live my life thinking its all about me. there's a plan for me, there's a community to serve. there're people to love. stop thinking about yourself jaime. you'll live for awhile, but impacts live forever. make a difference, lots of live with small deeds (:

gotta forgive and forget. gotta work harder. gotta be nicer. gotta train!!!!!
i am not giving up, not giving up. eoys might have been pretty bad, but i've got God on my side, do you? and anyway, even if i don't do well. i'll try harder next year. gotta trainnn! i wanna be the best. i believe. and the one above believes. so, i can do anything, really. leaders inspire and aspire. if i'm really doing this whole thing, then i'd be on my way to reaching life's finest fulfillments. so jaime, this is what you want, and where you want to be. have faith, be positive and do your best. you can do anything, cause you're super, and nobody can change that. not even the most perfect of people who crash ~~hearts~~ esteems. this is your stage, go for it!

oh and anybody for dance classes and a volunteer job! gonna feel the inner grove, gonna take control. gonna feel satisfaction, gonna change the world! oh, i need running partners!

okay, gonna sleep, night!

I don't have to do anything, and you can't make me. I'll live my own life, its high time.

; JAIME!

You caught me off guard,

2008-09-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

"Now I'm running and screaming"

Enyce, the church in Lisbon and the prayer of deliverance.
God was there in mass today. And it felt great, better than life, as the song goes.
Cause, the he will come like a thief in the night and we will not even know the time when he will come. And when he's there we shall be ready. Meanwhile, we are christians by our love. And by our love, we can change the world. (:
I love Novena, really. Okay friends, if I continue on, everyone'll think I'm going to be a nun, which scares me as much as hurting people does. Which is alot, btw.

Congratulations, friend. You've got what you want. Have fun in paradise! :D

Cause, I'm not confused anymore and I'm going to have faith the size of a mustard seed!
Group A's going to sunrice tmrw. Aiyah, I'm not looking forward to group A that much, cause we're lacking 13 friends ): But you know, we're making NEW FRIENDS (: So, its good its good. Jaime should stop complaining and being stupid. Oh god la, I read my archives I was one stupid girl. Especially when all those things that were covered by the black background surfaced. like ZOMG, why did I say that and that and that. How can you love someone and hate them now? Because you don't really hate them, but are trying to get over it all. Hopefully. I don't care. I do't hate you anymore panda, or at least I'm trying not to. Cause hatred is bad, and all good people have a sense of themself. And hey, you wished me happy birthday right, so I ain't that insignificant. And you aren't that heartless. But ultimately, what matters is making a difference. I wanna change the world or at least change the lives of people around me. For as Mr Teo says, For we brought nothing to the world and can bring nothing out of it. (:

And Jaime's gonna sleep. She's been a good girl to go for confessions. A happy girl to feel His presence and a brave girl to talk about it all after the hesitations. Cause now I'm not confused no more.

; JAIME!

Behold, here I come

2008-09-20T00:20:00.006+08:00

"Isaiah 21:9"
(yes I know, when have I become so holy/ known so much about the bible)

God is Good, All the Time.
All the Time, God is Good.

No, I have not gone crazy. I have been attending Novena. (: Yes I know, Jaime's been a good girl after exams. And, Novena's been great btw. Been feeling sleepy, but hopefully will not sleep during Novena. Our God is an awesome God, yes. The experiences have been rather enriching. We have good redemptorists coming, I guess. Okay, this is probably greek for the majority of the world who read my blog. (haha, how few is this la) So I shall just tell you that I'm going for mass 9 days in a row because its sacrifice. Or rather, its because Jaime's a good girl. And its inspiring/enriching anyway.

Enough boring you with things you probably don't understand. Here's a brief summary on what's been happening in my oh so very boring life, hahahaha.

1. EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRR!

Ohho, my exams were a horror. No, I'm not kidding. I think I'm going to get sent back to IJ, but I shall enjoy my last days of Ip1 and of being in VJ and going bonkers first before I go back to O level syllabus (BOO!) and have to start mugging m head off. Oh please dear God give me a miracle, you know I secretly have faith and have great hope that you will let me do well. haha, secretly deep deep deep inside. HAHA. Anyhows, I'm going to play until my brains get friend first.

2.PLAY PLAY AND MORE PLAY!

Wednesday was WALL.E day plus lets walk and see what there is day. Had dinner with mum, dad and my retarded brother. My mum's birthday dinner. Thursday was dental + IC making + shopping! :D I bought a t-shirt and my mum's present which I suspect I will end up wearing since the sizes are sucky. I don't have a picture of it since vivian just changed it for me today (:

(this is what's on the t-shirt. yes i know, it suits the good girl like me very well [:)

3. (Okay, so this was in chronological order until now) MY BIRTHDAY!

Thank you friends for remembering and pampering me (sort of!) thanks for the presents and the wishes. To date, I have about 30 phone wishes and countless face to face wishes. Thanks to those who remembered at 12 on the dot especially, appreciate it. I did have a good birthday, though some parts were a little/very surprising. It was great nonetheless.

(here are the presents, (: thanks a bunch friends. if yours is not here, I'm sorry! I took the picture like just a few minutes ago

4. FRIDAY IS SENTOSA DAYYYY!!!!

Okay, everybody knows how much Jaime loves sentosa right? Cause everytime I go there its a wreck havoc fun time (: So, it was great and ya, you can go read other blogs, I'm lazy to post about it. We played volley and ate and build castles and it was awesome, the end! :D I love 13 for so much enthusiasm + bonding, you guys are the bestest lot! :D:D:D:D:D

5. JAIME THE EASILY AMUSED.

hahahaha, jaime laughs at everything these days. Anyway, I have done my part of "researching"/stalking(hahaha) and I have found out some interesting stuff. AHAHAHA. Okay, I must stop laughing no matter how funny all this is. So yes, I've been really happy since 29/8, i'm guessing. THANK YOU RACHEL! Okay, this is very retarded being happy for so long because of that but I guess it makes me feel much better, that i'm not alone. Not really at least (: But anyway. I have really absolutely no idea why I'm so easily amused these days. Must be the post exams euphoria plus hyperness and excess of free time, I love my life now.

--

OKAY I REALLY NEED TO POST THIS. (hahahahahahaha)

We were doing this in the first part of cat class today where you have to insert the name and the age to recruit catechists. Anyway, the handwriting is mine, can you believe it. No, this is not how I usually write, I refuse to be that spastic. And yes, they're supposed to be young kids, I'm not crazy to make a kid seem P3 for no reason, writing retardedly is very tough you know!!! So this is advertisment (or not!). Doing this made me go crazy and super high, and laugh pretty crazily. (HAHAHAHAHA) And posting this here could probably risk my life. BUT IT IS REALLY FUNNY! (to me anyway) And it was the first thing that came to my mind. (HAHAHAHAHAHA) Okay, this is the result of reading Annabel's very bizarre "Angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging" book. Heh heh heh.

I'm probably the only one laughing at this. Inside joke. Okay fine, personal joke. AHAHAH, I was very amused when I did it okay. I needed to post it very badly thank you very much. Okay, if I don't ever post again, it means that someone who has read this post has taken offence or has decided that Jaime is too retarded(and ~~evil~~I am not evil!) and has taken the liberty to kill me.(HAHAHAHA). I know you all think I'm not making sense :P I'm bored + high okay!

Disclaimer: Any similarities with this and reality is simply coincidental and should not be taken to heart. The author should not be held responsible. While all care is taken to minimise injury, hurt or death, the author is in no way responsible for the damage or harm that my be incurred by the reader in anyway, physically, emotionally or psychologically. HAHAHAHA.
I know you all are probably thinking I am crazy now. But crazy I AM NOT. I have just been exposed to too much ridiculous things of late. IT IS NO MY FAULT.

Okay, I need to stop laughing. And I need to sleep. Goodnight pals! :D

OH YEAH I FORGOT.
(sorry pals who thought my post is done, ITS NOT! HAHAHA)
Anyway. Let's all join the ANTIPANDA CAMPAIGN!
Sorry friends who really like pandas or are pandas or whatever, JAIME IS AGAINST PANDAS! People who are close enough to me should know why, but please do not anyhow infer unless I have told you why, if not you might suffer from affective fallacy (hahaha) Okay anyway. PANDAS are bad because they think they very cool and they ~~are play-~~ like to play. And are very retarded. I have no idea why so many couples like pandas. Everyone should turn to like uh, monkeys or something! I mean, isn't that better! So let's drop all talk of pandas for monkeys! :D Because monkeys are less degrading and discriminating than pandas! (Okay, if this sounds like LA to you, I am very sorry. I'm on ultra high mode, HAHAHAHAHAHAA!)

; JAIME!

Change for the better.

2008-09-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

"i wrote to you, with childhood fantasies"

Because I've been having a tough time studying.
Because I've been having a great time with friends.
And because, I'm still here, stuck at, isolation.

Teachers' day was great! :D:D:D:D
Except for the fact that I still have half of mrs tan's present :X
And that we had to FLY to IJTP, cause stupid celebs ended late.
It was great. And, yes I had lots of fun. Was a great Friday! :D
With QUEEN GENEVIST, and the rest of the people in the world (:
CL was really great that day too. Like, OUTSTANDING! :D
Holiday spirit, yozxzxz! :D I love holidays!

Saturday, I didn't do anything again.
Self proclaimed study break
( as in break from study )! :D:D

Sunday was retardedly time wasting!
Mindchamps mindchamps! Actually 'twas okay!
Just that it took up ALOT of time, like seriously!
Had great GREAT food! :D I likeeeeeeeee (:

Monday was AWESOME! :D
Compass with CHARS, after PP with 13 and geog with Miss Ngerng!
HOHO. Our friend has a wonderful birthday present, YAY! :D
Yupp studying at library was quiteeee productive! & very fun!
CHARS AH, super funny la, your electiveeeeeee! :D Heeee!

Tuesday was FANTASTIC! (:
Except the fact that my notes are at Starbucks, grr!
Had lunch with (mr)lohloh at TiongBahru (-.-, i know)!
THAI EXPRESSSSSS! :D He rocks la, you know it 100%!
Then we took bus to Holland Vee! (Didn't get lost today!)
And went to cold rock, then starbucks. And studied! :D:D
Unfortunately, my book is still in starbucks!
MAN JAIME YOU DAMN CARELESS LA!!!!!!!
Nadia's getting it for me. By the time I get it, I'll be like how lag!
Nevermind, its my fault, its my fault. Must bear with it! Who's fault?
My fault, my faut my fault. How many things your fault? Too many.

INTERVIEW FOR CONFI TODAY!
Bestest interview ever, seriously!
I mean, yeahhh. But I still don't feel prepared to be confirmed.
Mental note: Jaime, FAITH remember, FAITH! Must focus!
Okay, yeah. It was good, really! I mean, it just went well.
So VIP doesn't love me but God does. Hurray!
(I'm not being sarcastic, really!)
Oh wells, its been a great tuesday.
And I haven't bathed.

~~Soooooooooo, bye!~~

Oh right, Jaime should stop playing mind games with herself. NONONO, CANNOT OKAY!
And, people should start calling me! I don't have free smses, but I have free incoming!
OH AND JAIME'S BIRTHDAY COMING!

Things I want! :D:D (wah super thick skin)
#1 WORLD PEACE!
#2 Faith, hope & love! (Haha, IJ!)
#3 Overflowing happiness.
#4 Confusion away! Everything go poof!
#5 Anything that has thought. You know, its the thought that counts! :D

Okay, so I'm sleepy. & I need to do work.

Seeyou, bye.

; JAIME!

~~/And this is my way of trying to keep things normal, sorry if its not perfect.~~

Let it go,

2008-08-27T22:17:00.004+08:00

"let it be"

Totally screwed interview today. And I really mean screwed.
I mean, what kind of gross answers were those.
Oh wells, what's over is over. And, it doesn't matter!
(and I'll still feel disappointed at the end, but heck!)

Electives tmrw. 3 letters. d, i and e.
But, it seems quite funny, hahaha.
Hope it goes well! lalalalala!

Respect + Values have become my favourite "pun" now.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Oh wells.
Not really looking forward to going to school for the next 2 days
EMBARRASSMENT LA! But, oh wells. Its for fun :D

!!! Looking forward to visiting the best school ever!
IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ (TP!) !!
Missing ALL the teachers, ALL that culture and ALL those friends!
Going out with genenenenenenenevieve HEEEEEEE! :D omg la!
I really cannot wait! Like hello, I <3 IJTP more than I used to!
Okay, maybe not. But I reallllly miss that fantastic school!
(and that uniform & those GREAT friends & cool teachers)

The great (gatsby) to do list:
Get electivezxzx done!
Finish Struggle for meaning!
Start physics + bio!
Memorise that cheena thingo!
GO BACK TO IJ & GO OUT! :D
Be more hardworking,
and,
Start forgetting, stop confusing, and just LIVE.

Hurrahhhhhhhhhh.
I want my exceptional ):

And, everything's gonna be alright Jaime! :D
Don't keep falling back down and don't give up!
Strength from within, faith throughout.

; JAIME!

/insert(ed): & I know I have friends who really love me alot. & I appreciate it. Thanks! (:

My stupid mouth,

2008-08-23T12:29:00.007+08:00

"got me in trouble"

Lalalalala. WEDNESDAY. sucked.
Tell me about respect just one more time, and I will hate you so much, you'd never want to see me in your class ever. Its really stupid la. You don't respect people JUST because they are teachers. You respect them because they earn your respect and they do things that we need to learn from. Tell me why I would wanna be biased and totally subjective, choosing who you like rather than who's good? Why would I wanna share all my unprofessional opinions with my students? I don't know, and I really don't care. I mean, there's politics in the teachers itself, what are we supposed to learn from?

I mean, I think that before Wednesday my respect was there. Until Wednesday when they had to ASK us to respect them, then. BOOM. Vanish. HELLO? If you really need to ask for respect, either A) tolerance level is very low, B) the teachers really really suck cause they totally cannot command our respect or C) they just want us to think like them, and in no other way. I MEAN WTH, first you tell us can eat. Then later say cannot eat during lessn, then tell us cannot eat at all. I mean like hello, where are your standards la.

In IJ, the ~~VALUES~~ virtues we learnt are presented in a different way. We learn to love each other, care for each other, be responsible, respect each other, to be humble and stuff like that. Doesn't seem that way, right? I don't really care la. The fact that I'm posting this here, means I'm ready to get shot down. I mean, the teachers read our blogs anyway. Its not that I have an attitude problem or anything. Its just that I just really don't agree with their teachings. I told my IJ friends and like my other friends, and they don't take it in accepting either la. MAN, I MISS IJ TOAPAYOH TEACHERS LIKE HELL. ~~why the hell did you go jaime?~~

Okay, no regret. No no regret no regret. I like VJ, and staying in IJ, might not be all the same. ~~(minus the catholic & the loving environment)~~ Interview's on wednesday. I'm pretty screwed. The interview's freaking about values. -.- And that's very bad because, I've cheated in ting xies & copied homework and stuff like that. So, hoho. Its not that I worry about not getting in, its the impression you give the teachers, because that can't be changed, ever. You get other chances to be leaders and all, but you only get one shot at impressions. But who cares what people think about you right? Its what GOD thinks about you, its what the people who you love thing about you & its what YOU YOURSELF thinks about yourself that matters. (even though this would probably very bad, because obviously, i don't think of myself that well, anw) And again, if the teachers were ever to read this, I should just shoot myself. Or return to IJ, and go to RJ after staying back one year. Hehhhhhhh. Okay, I am kidding. I like VJ, just don't like the rationales and teachings. Then again, its probably because, its just different from what I know from IJ. And I would have been there for 10 years/ spent 8 years there. Which is a really long time, long enough to soak everything in. (IJGIRLS: faith, hope & love. hahaha!)

The week's been okay. Pokémon in class, and chats about kindergarten shows and all have been fun! This week's been more productive than the last, but I gotta step it up a notch to finish everything in time. Oh wells, at most fail and ya. After exams, I am so going to have a picnic and I am so going back to IJ for smoothies and a wonderful catholic environment. I miss IJ, I miss IJ, I miss IJ, sincerely.

Okay, I have to go study and do proper stuff already.
And just in case the teachers come here and read this and want to cut my head off, I don't hate you guys, as much as I say it. Its just that I really don't agree with some things that are said and done and if we voice out our opinions, everyone knows that you'll be put down and everything you do will be bad. I mean, that's why nobody stand up to teachers, everywhere. I mean you're gonna determine what's in our report book and what's in alot of the rest of our lives, and that's important. I mean, I never said I had bad values, its just that most of us don't show their values through their actions, contrary to what the teachers think.

So yeah. Teachers' day soon! :D I. can't. wait! I feel like ponning school on teachers' day, cause like I'll be SUPER embarrassed. House comm is super retarded(in a funny way)

Oh and another thing. I find it extremely sadistic to hurt someone and think it is funny, thank you very much. And so, as again. I would like to tell YOU, that you are very very mean. And you should learn how to make people feel less stupid, disgusted and annoyed with themselves by considering your actions and trying to redeem yourself after them. Thank you.
But then again, why bother right? Since the world only revolves around you.
(this has nothing to do with the actions-values thing. its something else, completely)

Tuition. Cat class. Studying in church. Dinner.
(HURRY GO STUDY LA LAZY SHIZ)

; JAIME!

try & try

2008-08-23T12:07:00.004+08:00

"to walkaway"

An email:
Breakfast at McDonald's

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.' The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So I thought this would be a piece of cake. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'. His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance. He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.' I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?' I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to. LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. There is an Angel sent to watch over you. In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart. God gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

Since Jaime is as lazy as she always is, she decided to post it here instead of passing it on in email. If you like it, can always copy & paste and like post it on your blogs too or something. Haha, I'm lazy la. I sacrificed the wish orh! (okay, so maybe I just don't wish for things anymore)

:D

; JAIME!

So which is it

2008-08-19T23:16:00.007+08:00

"is it the right infliction?"

I promised that I'd serve. Not for fun, but for good. Remember jaime, servitude!

Anyway! Dental today!
GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS! Braces are scheduled to come off before 2009! :D YESSSSSSSS! Rejoice with me! No more cheek pinching experiences by the gross wires! Hurray! I shall await the date! And then jaime can become TYRA! :D tyra banks bang bang shoot shoot, you die! HURRAY! And yes, i really do want these metal wires out. They hurt okay! Haven't done much work today except for modulus misc and the changing of my blogskin, which is not much of work. but yes! It took time okay!

And,
OLYMPICS, all that craze!
Yes, I really love this thing called Olympics! I love it like infinity times more than chemistry! Okay fine, so Chemistry isn't that bad. Its just that stupid teachers come up with stupid answer schemes. Nevermind, teachers are partially stupid anyway; they outrightly hurt and disappoint students. So much for teachers day.

ANYWAY!
Here are my list of PLEASE TAKE NOTE olympians. In other words, they are absolutely fantastic and have ability worth great admiration!

#1 (the [not yet] overrated) MICHAEL PHELPS! This man has 8 golds, 7 world records and 1 olympic record just from Beijing! DRUGS? I think not! This guy is 100% the real deal! He's an inspiration to all! You know what? This dude is like, 23 years of age! And he's retiring! See, this proves that ALL of us can be great. Including me of course! :D He breaks all limits, and lets us have new limits to look towards! He's practically the greatest olympian alive! How can one be unfazed by so much? He's so determined! And nicely put by the commentator, "This man knows how to win". Inspiration from him: He gets 8 golds and 7 WR and 1OR, I'm gonna pass 8 subjects, 7As and 1B :D haha, okay obviously we all know its a little bit hard, but, we'll try :D The B is obviously chinese! (: Be YOUR best!

#2 (the splashless) GUO JINGJING! OMG this woman is so very graceful! Dive and then NO SPLASH! Have you seen her pikes and somersaults and twists. They are absolutely flawless! Can you imagine that? Her style is so refined that mistakes are really so hard to come by! Its so controlled, so correct and so, beautiful! I mean, its really not easy to do this you know! Like jump off a 3m springboard and twist and turn and then land in the pool, soundless! Like, wow. And the thing is that out of her 2 olympics, of which both she takes 2 events. She's gotten 4 golds. Which implies, total perfection! Inspiration from her: She does everything, flawlessly. Let's just attempt everything with the mindset to have no errors. To do our best. And to whoosh, flawlessly gracefully beautifully. Sweep you off your feet, take you away! Control it all, refine! Keep improving! Be YOUR best!

#3 (the fastest man alive) USAIN BOLT! This man, has the world record for 100m at 9.69s. He's won the GOLD in the shortest amount of time. Amaze me more, would you? He started slow, ended with pride and ran a good race. Tell me, how much more talent could you have than this. His strides are people's sprints. He's too good to be true. DRUGS? Hopefully not. But both ways, he is fantastic and wonderful. Run like you have never, be like what you've always wanted. Everything's so easy for him. He's that air of confidence, that air of ease. Its just click click, DONE. Inspiration from him: CONFIDENCE. Gotta be confident, just believe, and do it! Its easy as long as you train! I believe he's trained like hell to be this good. So good. His strides, his sprints, his everything! One day, we'll strive to be like him, a league above the rest. Success comes easy, after talent training and form is in place. Come one, give it all! Let's train hard now, so that on race day we can just go easy! Be YOUR best!

and finally,
#4 (the ever hot & superb) YELENA ISINBAYEVA! She's this russian pole vaulter who used to be a gymnast. She's young, and she has 2 gold medals. Her jump: 5.05m. First Runner's up's jump: 4.80m. AMAZING. She's so much better. 5.05, a world record. She gave it her all, just did her best. And BAM BAM WHAM, look at that 5.05m! Just a snap, just like that. But look at that. She wasn't affected by the first 2 attempts, she just kept going, and eventually. Hello 14th record! She's broken her/the world record 14 times. This woman, knows no limits! Her concentration. She talked to herself. Admist the large crowd, she focused. Over the pole over the pole, arch, conquered! That's the way! Inspiration from her: Don't get affected by failure! Bounce back, keep taking the chances, don't let it fly by. Concentrate. The task ahead is more important than the things around. And keep pursuing your limits, for you never know what they are if you don't exceed them! Focus, persistence, AQ(adversity quotient) Don't get affected, just keep trying! Don't give up! You may not be THE best, but you can always be YOUR best. And YOUR best is always subjective, that limit CAN be pushed. Just keep holding on! Be YOUR best!

I simply love olympics. So much awe! So much talent, so much inspiration! So many limits to break! There is no epitome to greatness, keep pushing the limits! Its an upward hill, just keep climbing! :D It may be tiring, but hoho, you could really be getting closer to the apex! Just a little Oomph, does it! Just, give it your best shot. No giving up, no giving less than your best!
Soooooooooon we'll become part of the champions! :D come on friends, champions in our own ways! :D

; JAIME! (wants to be olympic worthy!)

Last year's wishes

2008-08-13T21:31:00.004+08:00

"are this year's apologies"

today we had some "thankyou" and "sorry" and "i like you because..." during civics.
quite interesting la. but we end up playing a fool in the end. heh heh heh.
but yeah. realised that i'm "enthu" ! :D that's a running trait.
like even in those warm fuzzies from cl camp.
sooo, jaime shall stop having those little fits with herself.
and stop getting into those moods, where she has to drag herself to do things.
also, she shall stop being stupidly pessimistic during training (when it starts)
TRAINING IS GOOD! TOP 20/10 IS BETTER! :D
yes i know its far away, yes i do really want it, okay!

lalala, bio's over. la's over. NO MORE PROJECTS!
HURRAY! fireworks in the airrrr, woooooooooh! :D
okay, time to mug run mug run mug run, oh and prayyyyyyyyy!
haha, i have to start being more disciplined! and stop wasting time.
i'm really tired now ): but still have electives to do! ):
and math math math. its really killing me! ): ): ):
why we have so much work?!?!?! stupid!
national day weekend also no time to study.
(that's cause you were playing la, retard!)
but ya, no time to play + study eh. wth, they think we owls is it.
stupid stupid. take note teachers, we need to study. stop piling.
ESPECIALLY MATHS! like that, i'm not studying for math : p!

haha, took 76 with annabel, bryan & colin today (ABC!)
yay, the longest go home company in a long timeeeee.
as in, bus ride. cause no more pinhui & megan & siewmin to take anymore ):
oh and no more joann either. ): ): mannnnnnnnn!
pretty retarded la, everyday's becoming more retarded. NOT MY FAULT!

okay, have to go.

I CHOOSE YOU PIKACHEW!
peekaaah-CHUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

haha, second childhood secondchildhood!

; JAIME!

could you tell

2008-08-11T23:37:00.003+08:00

"from the flames that burnt you down"

does it hurt, to know that i'll never be there?
of course not, you have that girl.
OKAY ENOUGH JAIME.

spent from 10am - 7pm at shumin's house! :D very very funnn! (although not that productive)
we played volleyball that damn retarded computer game and talked to shumin's super cool super cool mother! :D:D:D oh and we filmed our video, did a bit of physics and and and, did the bio project thing. Haha, choosing colours SUCKED, took YEARS. but our presentation looks pretty good. yuppp yupp! :D haha shumin's house was very funny. i had a sudden obsession with the word "rape". anything to do with vivian became rape. AHAHAHA, stay in school until late late, orhhhh he wanna RAPE you. orhhh, he wanna rape you then make you pregnant, then after that have no choice but to marry him! ORHHHHHHH. (: heeeeeeeee. its lizzi's influence! she's the one who always goes, don't get raped! NOT MY FAULT :D

harharhar! :D:D:D:D
my weekend's been. unproductive. yesterday i went to watch money no enough 2, and went to play golf with my dad in a longgggggg time, and yaa, came home tried to do work and knocked out. and on saturday i slumped around the whole day at home. so woohoo, wasted weekend! cl was terrible la. what the hell, why do we bother anymore, the kids hate cl anyway. GRAH. nonono, jaime, you have to persevere. its okayyyy, for god right, not for glory, not for fun. do NOT give up, do not stop trying. DO NOT. cause even trying too hard seems to kill, sooner or later trying harder than too hard will pay off.

So, jiayou jiayou jiayou! :D

haha lalala, its been approximately 9 months since then. and, i have realised that jaime is still very stupid, haha. can you stop being retarded, womannnnnnnn!

jaime, you're not ugly, stupid or untalented. its just that, she's got it. even though, it may just be inadequancy. relax. stop losing faith.

goooooodnight!

; JAIME!

Wish you were;

2008-08-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

"as the sky is blue"

:D i'm blogging to break the long spell of unbloggingness.
its been one of those really tough weeks which go wham, bam, bam.
tiring, yes i know. but we continue trying! :D

LA's over, left with bio
and a tumultuous amount of homework
was supposed to do work today. but i got tired and fell asleep
and now i'm here. but what do you expect. ONE LONG WEEK ):
at least tmrw's a no lessons day! :D which is so much better!
i'd die if we had lessons!

applied for psl yesterday.
still don't know if its the right choice, cause.
i really don't know if it makes a difference.
and if its worth the time.
what if you realise you can't stand working with people
what if you're not a leader and you're just gonna disappoint yourself.
again and again and again. what if you just don't match up?
okay i should stop thinking, i pressed submit 24 hours ago.
aiyah, its not like i'm gonna get it anyway
(STUPID F^*&^%$#@ COLLEGE DAY)
oh whatever la, we got a new chem teacher anyway :D
i need help for stoichio, anyone wanna helppppppp (:
i treat you uh, haha, banana milkshake.
and, a chance to train your patience.
CAUSE I REALLY DONT GET IT ): ): ):

anyhow.
was trying to suck up to elects teacher today.
and i failed miserably ): haha. okay i should stop trying.
its becoming more spastic/retarded than successful.
goodbye exceptional :/
stayed in school till like 6+?
i finished chem did a little chinese and kinda got caught in the rain
so we waited for it to lighten up.
and then took the bus down.

yess, week break! goodbye friends.
gonna sleeeeeeeeeep (:

; JAIME!

tag replies:
/shermaine: YA I KNOW, she called me crazy ): i'm not okay!
/charissa: heee. :D must try la! if you fail you get experience right? (:
/manu: hahaha, ya. i'm changing the skin soon. haha, after all the stupid presentations.
/novia: agreed! now got twister tooo! we're gonna be twisted with 9876567 things!
/belly: lazy! i just moved from thereee! the skins are boring ! and no tagboard!
/lizzi: what nonsense! no mf! and i'm not spasticer than youuu. who laughs at EVERYTHING? youyouyouyouyou :D
/zf: the tests were hard la, going going goneee. ELECTIVES! :D ey, we must get exceptional!

happy national day + olympics!

time of my life;

2008-08-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

"taste every moment & live it out loud"

HOHO, TGIF TGIF!
Week's over, tests over.
Oh wait, still have physics SPA ):

Screwed chem, LA's a mess. And hoho, goodluck to you jaime!
I hope, I don't screw anything else. I NEED TO MUG!

Our class' new obsession is the beach ball which we vball (and I "tennis") with!
Hahaha, technically, its sakif's. But, now its v13's! :D
Our class is super playful laaa, first was chakteh, then cup stacking, then a brief period of aeroplane flying, then soccer, then vball(and tennis for me, HAHA!)
Ho welllls, at least we have fun! :D Lots and lots and lots of fun.

Okay, so today. We had lessons and all, and EA. Which I shall not comment about.
Before EA we got labeled. I am the ridiculous rumbling -.- haha, at least I ain't pseudo good(CHARS!) or naughty compound (VIVS!) :D heeee! Told you I good girl already whatt! And then after school shumin and I went to esplanade library to study( do chinese homework! :D) And ZOMG the library is very very very very very cooooool. And after the library I went for CL, and cl was cl. And, I'll try my best and we'd put in as much to be the best (:

Like hoho, this week was just okaaay! :D Nothing much to blog about though.
So, people who are coming here to see updates, sorry! There isn't much.
And if you wanna come here and read scandals and stuff, haha wrong place laaaa.
My personal life is like totally zeeeeeero. (: Just the way I like itt!

Ack, the blogger font I'm typing this in is very ugly, but whatever. Gotta get used to it.

And I think that God gives me what I asked for when I see its full purpose. Like when everything's over. And its good, cause I don't get confused and knee deep into trouble. I mean, I've made 2 mistakes that I really was silly to make. But then again, if I didn't make them, I wouldn't be here, right?

Got a lengthy to do list. D: Grahhhhhhhhhhhh. I need to sleeeeep! ):

Oh, and just in case. There is really NOTHING going on in my life at this point in time that is by teenage standards of "interesting", don't anyhow infer. I AM A GOOD GIRL!

Okay, have a great weekend. Yes, I'm going to change the blogskin because its hard to navigate for you people, yesss.

; JAIME! :D

Gonna ease my pain

2008-07-28T21:08:00.003+08:00

"driving me insane"

And today is the monday of the 6th week of school. I HAD BETTER START STUDYING! Because if I don't do formal studying, I am ready to go back to ijtp, stay back one year and go to RAFFLES :D. Okay, so maybe I don't like raffles that much. But, I am very pissed with VJ (or maybe just college day) so yupp! :D heeee!

But noo, I love vj's culture and school and all so, yess I will not get kicked out. Today we were talking about IP, and how it isn't as extraordinary anymore. And, I really think the teachers should go and find out from the other IPs and ordinary secondary schools. GO LEARN FROM MRS TAN AYE LENG YOZXZXZX! She's like whoooot. Or maybe she was just nice to me, hahaha. And I think that's probably the case!

Mhmm, today passed pretty quickly. And, zomg. I loved PE! :D we played badminton ( me & annabel ) and then later VOLLEYBALL! Yes, I still suck. But its realllll fun :D and after PE, mich and I ran. Okay, so it wasn't 8km, and hardly 45min. But it felt good after such a very long time. :D I shall do more of these long runs and such to become better next year. Yes I shall.

OH TODAY. I laughed alot.
Vivian had a cut on her face and I gave her my last surviving princess plaster. AND IT WAS HILARIOUS. Ohmygosh la, I couldn't stop laughing. She had this pink plaster on her face with Belle on it. Like, wth! :D all the teachers asked her why she was adorned with it. Spastic la that girl, must be her influence on me that causes me to go so siaoo.
And then HAHA VIVIAN SAID, "but that's Sakif's ball" and sakif turned around. And gave her the, WHAT THE SAI (haha, vivian's line) look. Omg, it was spastic laaaaaaaaa. She was referring to the yellow beach ball in class btw. :D

Yay Onethree, you bright up my MONDAY! :D
Love you guyss! Okay, gotta do work now

; JAIME! :D

yes, i will link soon. links not impt laa!

Its a new day,

2008-07-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

"change is never easy enough"
(tell me about it man, setting the template was/is hell!)

YES FRIENDS,
i've moved back to blogger cause I don't like being tagboard-less.
just changed my template and all. PRETTY GOOD STUFF, aye?
i'm really tired, so i ought to sleep already! :D
tomorrow's a pretty long day. gotta keep up!
better start doing work before i owe charissa a brownie ):
yay, pcube/V(ivian)J(aime)C(harissa) got our anklets today!
we're the bestttttttt. (:

today's been a great day by the way!
we had half day cause today/tmrw is college day.
and we went to the art museum for LA, and thennn ONETHREE went to watch movies! :D
we sneaked into NC16 yet again! :D yes i know, we rock! had lotsa funnnn.
i bought my colbie caliat cd, and now i had better start starving myself.
if not i'll go bankrupt before you can say, merrygoroundferriswheel,jaimerockrocksrocks.
hohoho, i'm being very spastic. must be the night getting to me.
not used to blogger's gigantic fonts compared to livejournal's!
i shall not abandon my lj, but get it to go private or something. idk! i'll see! (:
maybe i'll return there after my stint hereeee. (if the stint ever ends!)

okay, so long & goodnight! time to sleep, really!

; JAIME!