its gonna be the end of me,
♥ 10:46 PM
"nothing's ventured, nothing's gained"symposium prep day one.
HOHO JAIME THE GREAT NO NEED TO SLEEP TONIGHT!
bring in the coffee yozzzz, i am so freaking screwed!
my to do list is superr long and its almost the hols la! ):
i wanna sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep!
anyways, its been a pretty funny day.
i blame charissa, she's always making me laugh la!
her fault we see [insert object here] and laugh right.
check dna and see la! its HERRRRR, not the good jaime! :D
so yeah, lots of things to do, and not much time. GOODLUCK YOZZ!
cambodia cambodia cambodia!
I HAVE ZERO TIME NOW.
everything also cambodia! buttt, must be committed right?
yes yes yes. its gonna be lots of fun.
& the biggest sacrifice will be being friendly to those you wanna eat.
oh wells, since i can't lie to save my soul. i'd better start being nice to them from the bottom of my heart (eurghh!)
oh wells, forgive & forget, love to regret. (haha!)
okay, i'm here to free my brain from being screwy. :D
i want to drink juice! ):
oh dearest [iNsert Name here] please give us a show to watch tmrw!
teeeheee! :D kim and i get bored out of our minds in the bus.
i've gotta do my confi thing too.
should i even get confirmed in the first place? ready, prepared?
i sincerely hope so. how am i supposed to know if i will keep to this?
how can i ensure i'll be committed to being faithful always?
i reallly don't know. but we gots to have faith. hohump.
anyhow, i've to write the reflectionny thingy. must rack brains. now.
to you: if you want what you asked for, you gotta show me.my favourite word's still 'no'! :D but anything in between can be 'yes' (:in addition to cambodia btw, i'm going to BRISBANE :D:D:D
yesss! low exchange rate = shopping spree!
however, 'm training go byebye now ):
lets just hope i don't get affected!
I WANNA DO WELL NEXT YEARR AHHHH!
okay, gao bie le!
i'm gonna do my stuff! seeyou!
; JAIME!
for the world to see
Everything will change,
♥ 3:31 PM
"but love remains the same"(yeah right!)
i have piles of things to do.
and i am here slacking! woohoo, great job jaime!
at this rate, we all know who is going to become a cashier, don't we?
was bloghopping and OMG i realised that yesterday was last day of school for lower sec!
dear dear jaime, its been one full year since you cried your heart out outside R206, because it sucked so bad to leave your dear 2/1 friends and the whole track team! and dear dear jaime, its been about 1 year since you were
knee deep into love. mann, that was a horrible time la! but anyways, its been long and now, i'm doing my webfolio. one of the many stupid time wasting purely vjc integrated programme, stupid things. which makes the school ten times more 'elite'. great job jaime! grahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
my mum raised today, top 5 drop till (insert number here), ah well. should've studied harder. shouldn't have left ij in the first place, but nonetheless there're pros and cons. okay maybe leaving ij was an okay choice, but i don't like feeling XXX way about myself luh. stupid school! suu emailed me about what she thinks of ij now, guess i wouldn't like to be there either. but who the hell cares la, there's some sorta love and some sorta comfort there, no? but nevermind, vj's good. WHO wanted to come here? and i've been having lotsa fun. so, kapeesh!
): ): ): next year had better do well. if not, i'd be a complete failure, and might as well have stayed in ij! howells.
its been one complete cycle. another batch coming in after a whole lot of crying, and a whole batch of us going up to ip2. its beeen a quick year! hopefully, we'd do well as ip2s too. hopefully!
oh wells, i'm going back to webfolio, lest i wanna be a cashier! sleepy, tired, sleepy. YES TUESDAY START SCHOOL AT 1245!!!!!!
okay friends, farewell!
; JAIME!
for the world to see
shine your light,
♥ 10:34 PM
"he can move the mountains"This post is taken down and transporeted somewhere else due to personal reasons. It was posted on 21.10.08 at about 11pm. Go figure!
When you try looking for something, you'd never find it.
; JAIME!
& finally i feel good about myself for finding somewhere to relocate what was here.(:
for the world to see
ACT1V8(ACTIV8!)
♥ 10:01 PM
"your grace is enough"i don't need great grades, or fast timings.i don't need a perfection, i don't need pleasure.your grace is enough, yes your grace is enough for me. :DWHOOOOOO ARCHDIOCESAN YOUTH DAY(!AYD) ROCKETS!!!!!
it was WHOA. like seriously!!
great fun, great God, great experience! :D
thank you everyone who organised it manzzz!
it didn't feel long and draggy or anything, it was just fantastic!
IPOD everyone IPOD! (haha, elise!)
I PrayOfferDo. The coolio bishop from Philipines mann!
and the super cool drama ministry (MARIAN CAN DANCE!!!)
'I've got soul & I am a soldier for Christ!'
and the dance ministry! WHOA, receive the power yozzzz!
truly, God is alive! :D whoa, best praise & worship ever!
usually p&w for me's just fun. but it was like, whoa, really!
fantastic experience luh! gonna be more active, gonna OFFER more!
gotta PRAYOFFERDO! :D Yes yes yes!
I<3ayd!
"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." ACT1V8!
activate the holy spirit yoz! :D
i've got soul and i am a soldier for christ
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Friday was biennale! :D
biennale was great, though i was really really sian ): but it was fantastic!
i liked "i am not expensive" and "blackfield" which were in the same room!
oh and the ones in the last last also, like "private moon" and "hair salon" and "address" too
you can go look at charissa's blog where the pictures are uploaded!
i've the extra guide which sakif kindly donated since mine got drenched by the drinks
anyone who wants to borrow it is welcome! :D (obviously the ip1s don't need it luh)
'max payne' i tell you is a comedy! really!
you can watch it if you don't mind wasting your money to a show which is worse than 'house bunny', though i haven't watched it, so yupp
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I know the post is superrrr disorganised. but now, to today
haha got home at 12am after pratas. 7 of us had 22 pratas!i contributed 4 :D
we were reallly hungry after the session y'know!!!
went for auntie's cl and yeah it was cool. GOD BLOCKS GOD BLOCKS!
where art thou god blocks? where art thou foundation?
missing in the vast majority of things
oh wells, we gotta build it back up friends!
oh yeah, most of you won't know about god blocks unless you were there, so if you wanna know what its about, come ask me! :D its hard to type out.
mhm, went to borders and out shopping with my mum. didn't get anything!
then went to have BigO for lunch! SINFUL! but great anyways
went to pick up some free gift that came with the new tv from simlim/funan haha i still don't know where, but yeah
got myself a camera and my ipod charger, obviously parents subsidised
and yeah, came home and took a longggggg nap.
hoho, i ain't bringing my new cam to school, lest the stupid thief comes back
if you are reading this thief, you are one bad person
okayzzz, gonna bathe and do other stuff, seeya
;JAIME!
for the world to see
a little bit more.
♥ 10:12 PM
"what it takes, i don't care"
results are all back. like [insert brown word here].
both sciences and arts also not good, siannnnnn.
grades drop drop drop, drop drop drop.
who's fault? my fault. never study hard enough. haii.
training's coming back in full force. kiss my social life goodbye.
): what a year.
came to vj to learn more stuff and to get better cross stuff.
and i accomplished o out of the 2. good job jaime, maybe that's why you feel like this.
and which stupid stupid girl decided to be hopeful and believe in things that were only too good to believe. jaime maria faith tan, the stupid girl who is going to keep getting herself in predicaments and painful situations. why? because i am stupid and/or have no ability to decide.
really wonder why i get all these chances and opportunities to do great things and to be awesome. God's really wasting them on me, i don't even use them well enough.
and maybe that's why i feel like [insert appropriate degree of emotion here]
rachel says don't be too hard on myself, i'm in IP. that's true (for results at least). but how am i supposed to account for my [insert brown word]cross results, my average track performance and my horrible declining responsibilility capability. can't can't can't. i'm not doing my best to fulfill my potential! and being in IP, does it mean i am in some ways handicapped to her, who sometimes i become really jealous of because that girl is going to fricking [insert elite school here] by doing something nobody competes in and has everything i want because she's got the used-to-be perfect [insert word here]and still has that perfect impression because it hasn't ruined her or her heart yet.
oh god jaime, i really hate you so much for being a bitch and for dwelling on this for so long.
i wish i were a werewolf; they heal fast. i wish i were a vampire; they're cold blooded. i wish i were a zombie; they don't feel anything at all. i wish i'd just be contended with myself and let live.
okay i shall stop this unpleasant post. goodbye and farewell. see you when i'm in a better mood.
everyone who's life is turning the right way up, told you there's a fixed amount of happiness in the world, and i'm happy that its your turn to be happy. try as hard as you can to make more happiness in the world.
; JAIME!
for the world to see
over again,
♥ 11:47 PM
"i am trying"
i'm sleepy and someone commented on long posts, so short post today (:
lalala, training's started. contradictions, but oh wells. jaime, you must stay (very) strong.
results of some papers are back. disastrous la, one rpaper on the way for chinese! gahhh, chinese is really really hard okay! don't wanna get the rest back, sadly.
prayer session today put me to sleep, i felt guilty. i'm doing winessing for confi, like ohcrap right. and yeah, imh presentation today didn't get that screwed thank God. there's cl tmrw, hope it goes greattt! :D
mhm, so my life's been pretty monotonous, can't expect much right. i'm watching da chang jin now, superrr nice, but i don't have enough dedication to watch it nonstop, so yeah. grahhh, wanna go out!
got the feast day pictures but i'm lazy to post. there's dennis, the hottie (says my mum). so yeahhhhh. okay, i'm sleepy. night night.
; JAIME!
you're inconsistent. say one thing & do another. how'm i supposed to believe you & invest anything?
/edit: on second thought. i really like i am, nowhere. (:
for the world to see
Definitely maybe;
♥ 10:48 PM
"somebody tell me what's wrong"
today was a packed day, really.
farewell assembly, training, prep for openhouse and cl.
i feel terrible for not being participative enough, but arghhhhh.
don't know la, i'm very annoyed okaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
okay, positive attitude, come on jaime, happy days (:
stop judging others because they aren't like you, you're not perfect.
"its normal to be selfish, its also normal to be pissed"
but its not right, is it? we should be nice people, shouldn't we?
argh, this is my fault that i'm in such an awful mood. why jaime why?
am i expecting too much, as usual? of myself, of others, of everything?
yes i am, who's fault? your fault jaime, your fault.
training's started. its tiring! but its good (:
train hard, next year do well. who happy? everybody happy.
papers back next week. goodluck to rpapering jaime. (:
NONONO, must have faith, we will be saved!
sorry no pictures yet, cause the pictures i wanna post are/will
a) not with me (yet!)
b) get me killed (HAHA!); or
c) lost somewhere in my phone or something.
okay, i'm sleepy needa go rest.
/ i hate feeling this way okay. i hate being in bad moods, and i hate being annoyed with people. it isn't fun. really! don't know how people can stand it. so much for positive attitude. -.-
; JAIME!
for the world to see
