"I think God can explain"
FEAST DAY WAS AWESOMEE!
Dressing up was pretty cool I guess. Yuck la, I HATE HATE HATE makeup. My face gets really itchy and cannot scratch la. Eeeeew, don't know how lizzi, celly, rachel, kim and jacintha managed to posess me into getting it on la. Pfft! Mass was disastrous, cause we pissed Lissa's parents off, oh the drama. And then dinner was dinner. Kinda slow, but faster than last year's pictures pictures pictures and then DANCE!
Dance really rocks cause you know when the lights are down and the music blasts, the only thing you're doing is moving and screaming and singing and catching whatever notes you can catch. So we weren't really dancing, but you know, you just forget everything, it just refreshes you whole!
Sunday was ordinary. Late morning, childrens' day stuff, lunch pack room, out with mum and onlineeee :D Dad went for F1, I didn't watch it at home, heh!
Today was today. Lessons, were restless really. Couldn't sit ourselves down. But we tried, so good enough (: Went running with Melissa. Disaster!!! She's soooooo good. And I'm majorly off form, good luck to you Jaime, sleep NOW NOW NOW. Then we had Sakae buffet, and ate over a 100 dollars worth la. WHOA. I didn't have dinner and am still full. Came home bathed. Attempted to pack, watched friends, attempted somemore, used the phone, came online and am going to sleep.
Note to self: Training's starting tmrw yozz, gotta keep moving. Ain't gonna give up, just can't. You gave up today, and there's no moreee. Its for what we all want. Sucess isn't a hard work to walk, but the destination is a one worth living. Come on, you gotta do this. PUSH PUSH PUSH, give it come on, give it to me (:
; JAIME!
(pictures shall come sooooon!)
"if it takes away the pain"
you don't have to love anyone you don't want to.
you don't have to remember that you were stupid all of sec2.
you don't have to feel hurt everyday of your life because its over, jaime.
you don't have to feel stupid for not having anything.
you don't have to wait on the phone, you don't have to see 1 word replies.
you don't have to do anything. you just need to live.
woooooh. great week. (:
monday cycling, tuesday parkway borders!, wednesday soccer(HAHA, what a joke), thursday shopping at vivo! :D its been pretty awesome. post exam periods are the greatest, really. gonna have to go vanessa's house soon. HOW FUN RIGHT! :D jacintha's house tmrw(i mean saturday), i think? haha, get ready for feast day together. so retarded! but whatevs, fun right?
novena's been good. this is the kind of thing i need to wake me up and need to devote to. i can't live my life thinking its all about me. there's a plan for me, there's a community to serve. there're people to love. stop thinking about yourself jaime. you'll live for awhile, but impacts live forever. make a difference, lots of live with small deeds (:
gotta forgive and forget. gotta work harder. gotta be nicer. gotta train!!!!!
i am not giving up, not giving up. eoys might have been pretty bad, but i've got God on my side, do you? and anyway, even if i don't do well. i'll try harder next year. gotta trainnn! i wanna be the best. i believe. and the one above believes. so, i can do anything, really. leaders inspire and aspire. if i'm really doing this whole thing, then i'd be on my way to reaching life's finest fulfillments. so jaime, this is what you want, and where you want to be. have faith, be positive and do your best. you can do anything, cause you're super, and nobody can change that. not even the most perfect of people who crash
oh and anybody for dance classes and a volunteer job! gonna feel the inner grove, gonna take control. gonna feel satisfaction, gonna change the world! oh, i need running partners!
okay, gonna sleep, night!
I don't have to do anything, and you can't make me. I'll live my own life, its high time.
; JAIME!
"Now I'm running and screaming"
Enyce, the church in Lisbon and the prayer of deliverance.
God was there in mass today. And it felt great, better than life, as the song goes.
Cause, the he will come like a thief in the night and we will not even know the time when he will come. And when he's there we shall be ready. Meanwhile, we are christians by our love. And by our love, we can change the world. (:
I love Novena, really. Okay friends, if I continue on, everyone'll think I'm going to be a nun, which scares me as much as hurting people does. Which is alot, btw.
Congratulations, friend. You've got what you want. Have fun in paradise! :D
Cause, I'm not confused anymore and I'm going to have faith the size of a mustard seed!
Group A's going to sunrice tmrw. Aiyah, I'm not looking forward to group A that much, cause we're lacking 13 friends ): But you know, we're making NEW FRIENDS (: So, its good its good. Jaime should stop complaining and being stupid. Oh god la, I read my archives I was one stupid girl. Especially when all those things that were covered by the black background surfaced. like ZOMG, why did I say that and that and that. How can you love someone and hate them now? Because you don't really hate them, but are trying to get over it all. Hopefully. I don't care. I do't hate you anymore panda, or at least I'm trying not to. Cause hatred is bad, and all good people have a sense of themself. And hey, you wished me happy birthday right, so I ain't that insignificant. And you aren't that heartless. But ultimately, what matters is making a difference. I wanna change the world or at least change the lives of people around me. For as Mr Teo says, For we brought nothing to the world and can bring nothing out of it. (:
And Jaime's gonna sleep. She's been a good girl to go for confessions. A happy girl to feel His presence and a brave girl to talk about it all after the hesitations. Cause now I'm not confused no more.
; JAIME!
"Isaiah 21:9"
(yes I know, when have I become so holy/ known so much about the bible)
God is Good, All the Time.
All the Time, God is Good.
No, I have not gone crazy. I have been attending Novena. (: Yes I know, Jaime's been a good girl after exams. And, Novena's been great btw. Been feeling sleepy, but hopefully will not sleep during Novena. Our God is an awesome God, yes. The experiences have been rather enriching. We have good redemptorists coming, I guess. Okay, this is probably greek for the majority of the world who read my blog. (haha, how few is this la) So I shall just tell you that I'm going for mass 9 days in a row because its sacrifice. Or rather, its because Jaime's a good girl. And its inspiring/enriching anyway.
Enough boring you with things you probably don't understand. Here's a brief summary on what's been happening in my oh so very boring life, hahahaha.
1. EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRR!
Ohho, my exams were a horror. No, I'm not kidding. I think I'm going to get sent back to IJ, but I shall enjoy my last days of Ip1 and of being in VJ and going bonkers first before I go back to O level syllabus (BOO!) and have to start mugging m head off. Oh please dear God give me a miracle, you know I secretly have faith and have great hope that you will let me do well. haha, secretly deep deep deep inside. HAHA. Anyhows, I'm going to play until my brains get friend first.
2.PLAY PLAY AND MORE PLAY!
Wednesday was WALL.E day plus lets walk and see what there is day. Had dinner with mum, dad and my retarded brother. My mum's birthday dinner. Thursday was dental + IC making + shopping! :D I bought a t-shirt and my mum's present which I suspect I will end up wearing since the sizes are sucky. I don't have a picture of it since vivian just changed it for me today (:
(this is what's on the t-shirt. yes i know, it suits the good girl like me very well [:)
3. (Okay, so this was in chronological order until now) MY BIRTHDAY!
Thank you friends for remembering and pampering me (sort of!) thanks for the presents and the wishes. To date, I have about 30 phone wishes and countless face to face wishes. Thanks to those who remembered at 12 on the dot especially, appreciate it. I did have a good birthday, though some parts were a little/very surprising. It was great nonetheless.
(here are the presents, (: thanks a bunch friends. if yours is not here, I'm sorry! I took the picture like just a few minutes ago
4. FRIDAY IS SENTOSA DAYYYY!!!!
Okay, everybody knows how much Jaime loves sentosa right? Cause everytime I go there its a wreck havoc fun time (: So, it was great and ya, you can go read other blogs, I'm lazy to post about it. We played volley and ate and build castles and it was awesome, the end! :D I love 13 for so much enthusiasm + bonding, you guys are the bestest lot! :D:D:D:D:D
5. JAIME THE EASILY AMUSED.
hahahaha, jaime laughs at everything these days. Anyway, I have done my part of "researching"/stalking(hahaha) and I have found out some interesting stuff. AHAHAHA. Okay, I must stop laughing no matter how funny all this is. So yes, I've been really happy since 29/8, i'm guessing. THANK YOU RACHEL! Okay, this is very retarded being happy for so long because of that but I guess it makes me feel much better, that i'm not alone. Not really at least (: But anyway. I have really absolutely no idea why I'm so easily amused these days. Must be the post exams euphoria plus hyperness and excess of free time, I love my life now.
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OKAY I REALLY NEED TO POST THIS. (hahahahahahaha)
We were doing this in the first part of cat class today where you have to insert the name and the age to recruit catechists. Anyway, the handwriting is mine, can you believe it. No, this is not how I usually write, I refuse to be that spastic. And yes, they're supposed to be young kids, I'm not crazy to make a kid seem P3 for no reason, writing retardedly is very tough you know!!! So this is advertisment (or not!). Doing this made me go crazy and super high, and laugh pretty crazily. (HAHAHAHAHA) And posting this here could probably risk my life. BUT IT IS REALLY FUNNY! (to me anyway) And it was the first thing that came to my mind. (HAHAHAHAHAHA) Okay, this is the result of reading Annabel's very bizarre "Angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging" book. Heh heh heh.
I'm probably the only one laughing at this. Inside joke. Okay fine, personal joke. AHAHAH, I was very amused when I did it okay. I needed to post it very badly thank you very much. Okay, if I don't ever post again, it means that someone who has read this post has taken offence or has decided that Jaime is too retarded(and evilI am not evil!) and has taken the liberty to kill me.(HAHAHAHA). I know you all think I'm not making sense :P I'm bored + high okay!
Disclaimer: Any similarities with this and reality is simply coincidental and should not be taken to heart. The author should not be held responsible. While all care is taken to minimise injury, hurt or death, the author is in no way responsible for the damage or harm that my be incurred by the reader in anyway, physically, emotionally or psychologically. HAHAHAHA.
I know you all are probably thinking I am crazy now. But crazy I AM NOT. I have just been exposed to too much ridiculous things of late. IT IS NO MY FAULT.
Okay, I need to stop laughing. And I need to sleep. Goodnight pals! :D
OH YEAH I FORGOT.
(sorry pals who thought my post is done, ITS NOT! HAHAHA)
Anyway. Let's all join the ANTIPANDA CAMPAIGN!
Sorry friends who really like pandas or are pandas or whatever, JAIME IS AGAINST PANDAS! People who are close enough to me should know why, but please do not anyhow infer unless I have told you why, if not you might suffer from affective fallacy (hahaha) Okay anyway. PANDAS are bad because they think they very cool and they are play- like to play. And are very retarded. I have no idea why so many couples like pandas. Everyone should turn to like uh, monkeys or something! I mean, isn't that better! So let's drop all talk of pandas for monkeys! :D Because monkeys are less degrading and discriminating than pandas! (Okay, if this sounds like LA to you, I am very sorry. I'm on ultra high mode, HAHAHAHAHAHAA!)
; JAIME!
"i wrote to you, with childhood fantasies"
Because I've been having a tough time studying.
Because I've been having a great time with friends.
And because, I'm still here, stuck at, isolation.
Teachers' day was great! :D:D:D:D
Except for the fact that I still have half of mrs tan's present :X
And that we had to FLY to IJTP, cause stupid celebs ended late.
It was great. And, yes I had lots of fun. Was a great Friday! :D
With QUEEN GENEVIST, and the rest of the people in the world (:
CL was really great that day too. Like, OUTSTANDING! :D
Holiday spirit, yozxzxz! :D I love holidays!
Saturday, I didn't do anything again.
Self proclaimed study break
( as in break from study )! :D:D
Sunday was retardedly time wasting!
Mindchamps mindchamps! Actually 'twas okay!
Just that it took up ALOT of time, like seriously!
Had great GREAT food! :D I likeeeeeeeee (:
Monday was AWESOME! :D
Compass with CHARS, after PP with 13 and geog with Miss Ngerng!
HOHO. Our friend has a wonderful birthday present, YAY! :D
Yupp studying at library was quiteeee productive! & very fun!
CHARS AH, super funny la, your electiveeeeeee! :D Heeee!
Tuesday was FANTASTIC! (:
Except the fact that my notes are at Starbucks, grr!
Had lunch with (mr)lohloh at TiongBahru (-.-, i know)!
THAI EXPRESSSSSS! :D He rocks la, you know it 100%!
Then we took bus to Holland Vee! (Didn't get lost today!)
And went to cold rock, then starbucks. And studied! :D:D
Unfortunately, my book is still in starbucks!
MAN JAIME YOU DAMN CARELESS LA!!!!!!!
Nadia's getting it for me. By the time I get it, I'll be like how lag!
Nevermind, its my fault, its my fault. Must bear with it! Who's fault?
My fault, my faut my fault. How many things your fault? Too many.
INTERVIEW FOR CONFI TODAY!
Bestest interview ever, seriously!
I mean, yeahhh. But I still don't feel prepared to be confirmed.
Mental note: Jaime, FAITH remember, FAITH! Must focus!
Okay, yeah. It was good, really! I mean, it just went well.
So VIP doesn't love me but God does. Hurray!
(I'm not being sarcastic, really!)
Oh wells, its been a great tuesday.
And I haven't bathed.
Oh right, Jaime should stop playing mind games with herself. NONONO, CANNOT OKAY!
And, people should start calling me! I don't have free smses, but I have free incoming!
OH AND JAIME'S BIRTHDAY COMING!
Things I want! :D:D (wah super thick skin)
#1 WORLD PEACE!
#2 Faith, hope & love! (Haha, IJ!)
#3 Overflowing happiness.
#4 Confusion away! Everything go poof!
#5 Anything that has thought. You know, its the thought that counts! :D
Okay, so I'm sleepy. & I need to do work.
Seeyou, bye.
; JAIME!
