Let it go,
♥ 10:17 PM
"let it be"Totally screwed interview today. And I really mean screwed.
I mean, what kind of gross answers were those.
Oh wells, what's over is over. And, it doesn't matter!
(and I'll still feel disappointed at the end, but heck!)
Electives tmrw. 3 letters. d, i and e.
But, it seems quite funny, hahaha.
Hope it goes well! lalalalala!
Respect + Values have become my favourite "pun" now.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Oh wells.
Not really looking forward to going to school for the next 2 days
EMBARRASSMENT LA! But, oh wells. Its for fun :D
!!! Looking forward to visiting the best school ever!
IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ IJ (TP!) !!
Missing ALL the teachers, ALL that culture and ALL those friends!
Going out with genenenenenenenevieve HEEEEEEE! :D omg la!
I really cannot wait! Like hello, I <3 IJTP more than I used to!
Okay, maybe not. But I reallllly miss that fantastic school!
(and that uniform & those GREAT friends & cool teachers)
The great (gatsby) to do list:
Get electivezxzx done!
Finish Struggle for meaning!
Start physics + bio!
Memorise that cheena thingo!
GO BACK TO IJ & GO OUT! :D
Be more hardworking,
and,
Start forgetting, stop confusing, and just LIVE.
Hurrahhhhhhhhhh.
I want my exceptional ):
And, everything's gonna be alright Jaime! :D
Don't keep falling back down and don't give up!
Strength from within, faith throughout.
; JAIME!
/insert(ed): & I know I have friends who really love me alot. & I appreciate it. Thanks! (:
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My stupid mouth,
♥ 12:29 PM
"got me in trouble"Lalalalala. WEDNESDAY. sucked.
Tell me about respect just one more time, and I will hate you so much, you'd never want to see me in your class ever. Its really stupid la. You don't respect people JUST because they are teachers. You respect them because they earn your respect and they do things that we need to learn from. Tell me why I would wanna be biased and totally subjective, choosing who you like rather than who's good? Why would I wanna share all my unprofessional opinions with my students? I don't know, and I really don't care. I mean, there's politics in the teachers itself, what are we supposed to learn from?
I mean, I think that before Wednesday my respect was there. Until Wednesday when they had to ASK us to respect them, then. BOOM. Vanish. HELLO? If you really need to ask for respect, either A) tolerance level is very low, B) the teachers really really suck cause they totally cannot command our respect or C) they just want us to think like them, and in no other way. I MEAN WTH, first you tell us can eat. Then later say cannot eat during lessn, then tell us cannot eat at all. I mean like hello, where are your standards la.
In IJ, the
VALUES virtues we learnt are presented in a different way. We learn to love each other, care for each other, be responsible, respect each other, to be humble and stuff like that. Doesn't seem that way, right? I don't really care la. The fact that I'm posting this here, means I'm ready to get shot down. I mean, the teachers read our blogs anyway. Its not that I have an attitude problem or anything. Its just that I just really don't agree with their teachings. I told my IJ friends and like my other friends, and they don't take it in accepting either la. MAN, I MISS IJ TOAPAYOH TEACHERS LIKE HELL.
why the hell did you go jaime?Okay, no regret. No no regret no regret. I like VJ, and staying in IJ, might not be all the same.
(minus the catholic & the loving environment) Interview's on wednesday. I'm pretty screwed. The interview's freaking about values. -.- And that's very bad because, I've cheated in ting xies & copied homework and stuff like that. So, hoho. Its not that I worry about not getting in, its the impression you give the teachers, because that can't be changed, ever. You get other chances to be leaders and all, but you only get one shot at impressions. But who cares what people think about you right? Its what GOD thinks about you, its what the people who you love thing about you & its what YOU YOURSELF thinks about yourself that matters. (even though this would probably very bad, because obviously, i don't think of myself that well, anw) And again, if the teachers were ever to read this, I should just shoot myself. Or return to IJ, and go to RJ after staying back one year. Hehhhhhhh. Okay, I am kidding. I like VJ, just don't like the rationales and teachings. Then again, its probably because, its just different from what I know from IJ. And I would have been there for 10 years/ spent 8 years there. Which is a really long time, long enough to soak everything in. (IJGIRLS: faith, hope & love. hahaha!)
The week's been okay. Pokémon in class, and chats about kindergarten shows and all have been fun! This week's been more productive than the last, but I gotta step it up a notch to finish everything in time. Oh wells, at most fail and ya. After exams, I am so going to have a picnic and I am so going back to IJ for smoothies and a wonderful catholic environment. I miss IJ, I miss IJ, I miss IJ, sincerely.
Okay, I have to go study and do proper stuff already.
And just in case the teachers come here and read this and want to cut my head off, I don't hate you guys, as much as I say it. Its just that I really don't agree with some things that are said and done and if we voice out our opinions, everyone knows that you'll be put down and everything you do will be bad. I mean, that's why nobody stand up to teachers, everywhere. I mean you're gonna determine what's in our report book and what's in alot of the rest of our lives, and that's important. I mean, I never said I had bad values, its just that most of us don't show their values through their actions, contrary to what the teachers think.
So yeah. Teachers' day soon! :D I. can't. wait! I feel like ponning school on teachers' day, cause like I'll be SUPER embarrassed. House comm is super retarded(in a funny way)
Oh and another thing. I find it extremely sadistic to hurt someone and think it is
funny, thank you very much. And so, as again. I would like to tell YOU, that you are very very mean. And you should learn how to make people feel less stupid, disgusted and annoyed with themselves by considering your actions and trying to redeem yourself after them.
Thank you.
But then again, why bother right? Since the world only revolves around you.
(this has nothing to do with the actions-values thing. its something else, completely)
Tuition. Cat class. Studying in church. Dinner.
(HURRY GO STUDY LA LAZY SHIZ)
; JAIME!
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try & try
♥ 12:07 PM
"to walkaway"An email:
Breakfast at McDonald's
I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.
The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.' The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.
I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So I thought this would be a piece of cake. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.
We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.
As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'. His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance. He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.
I held my tears as I stood there with them.
The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).
Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.
He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'
I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.' I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.'
We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.
We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.
I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?' I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.
In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.
I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:
UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.
Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to. LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. There is an Angel sent to watch over you. In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.
An Angel wrote:
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart. God gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest.
Since Jaime is as lazy as she always is, she decided to post it here instead of passing it on in email. If you like it, can always copy & paste and like post it on your blogs too or something. Haha, I'm lazy la. I sacrificed the wish orh! (okay, so maybe I just don't wish for things anymore)
:D
; JAIME!
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So which is it
♥ 11:16 PM
"is it the right infliction?"
I promised that I'd serve. Not for fun, but for good. Remember jaime, servitude!
Anyway! Dental today!
GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS! Braces are scheduled to come off before 2009! :D YESSSSSSSS! Rejoice with me! No more cheek pinching experiences by the gross wires! Hurray! I shall await the date! And then jaime can become TYRA! :D tyra banks bang bang shoot shoot, you die! HURRAY! And yes, i really do want these metal wires out. They hurt okay! Haven't done much work today except for modulus misc and the changing of my blogskin, which is not much of work. but yes! It took time okay!
And,
OLYMPICS, all that craze!
Yes, I really love this thing called Olympics! I love it like infinity times more than chemistry! Okay fine, so Chemistry isn't that bad. Its just that stupid teachers come up with stupid answer schemes. Nevermind, teachers are partially stupid anyway; they outrightly hurt and disappoint students. So much for teachers day.
ANYWAY!
Here are my list of PLEASE TAKE NOTE olympians. In other words, they are absolutely fantastic and have ability worth great admiration!
#1 (the [not yet] overrated) MICHAEL PHELPS! This man has 8 golds, 7 world records and 1 olympic record just from Beijing! DRUGS? I think not! This guy is 100% the real deal! He's an inspiration to all! You know what? This dude is like, 23 years of age! And he's retiring! See, this proves that ALL of us can be great. Including me of course! :D He breaks all limits, and lets us have new limits to look towards! He's practically the greatest olympian alive! How can one be unfazed by so much? He's so determined! And nicely put by the commentator, "This man knows how to win". Inspiration from him: He gets 8 golds and 7 WR and 1OR, I'm gonna pass 8 subjects, 7As and 1B :D haha, okay obviously we all know its a little bit hard, but, we'll try :D The B is obviously chinese! (: Be YOUR best!
#2 (the splashless) GUO JINGJING! OMG this woman is so very graceful! Dive and then NO SPLASH! Have you seen her pikes and somersaults and twists. They are absolutely flawless! Can you imagine that? Her style is so refined that mistakes are really so hard to come by! Its so controlled, so correct and so, beautiful! I mean, its really not easy to do this you know! Like jump off a 3m springboard and twist and turn and then land in the pool, soundless! Like, wow. And the thing is that out of her 2 olympics, of which both she takes 2 events. She's gotten 4 golds. Which implies, total perfection! Inspiration from her: She does everything, flawlessly. Let's just attempt everything with the mindset to have no errors. To do our best. And to whoosh, flawlessly gracefully beautifully. Sweep you off your feet, take you away! Control it all, refine! Keep improving! Be YOUR best!
#3 (the fastest man alive) USAIN BOLT! This man, has the world record for 100m at 9.69s. He's won the GOLD in the shortest amount of time. Amaze me more, would you? He started slow, ended with pride and ran a good race. Tell me, how much more talent could you have than this. His strides are people's sprints. He's too good to be true. DRUGS? Hopefully not. But both ways, he is fantastic and wonderful. Run like you have never, be like what you've always wanted. Everything's so easy for him. He's that air of confidence, that air of ease. Its just click click, DONE. Inspiration from him: CONFIDENCE. Gotta be confident, just believe, and do it! Its easy as long as you train! I believe he's trained like hell to be this good. So good. His strides, his sprints, his everything! One day, we'll strive to be like him, a league above the rest. Success comes easy, after talent training and form is in place. Come one, give it all! Let's train hard now, so that on race day we can just go easy! Be YOUR best!
and finally,
#4 (the ever hot & superb) YELENA ISINBAYEVA! She's this russian pole vaulter who used to be a gymnast. She's young, and she has 2 gold medals. Her jump: 5.05m. First Runner's up's jump: 4.80m. AMAZING. She's so much better. 5.05, a world record. She gave it her all, just did her best. And BAM BAM WHAM, look at that 5.05m! Just a snap, just like that. But look at that. She wasn't affected by the first 2 attempts, she just kept going, and eventually. Hello 14th record! She's broken her/the world record 14 times. This woman, knows no limits! Her concentration. She talked to herself. Admist the large crowd, she focused. Over the pole over the pole, arch, conquered! That's the way! Inspiration from her: Don't get affected by failure! Bounce back, keep taking the chances, don't let it fly by. Concentrate. The task ahead is more important than the things around. And keep pursuing your limits, for you never know what they are if you don't exceed them! Focus, persistence, AQ(adversity quotient) Don't get affected, just keep trying! Don't give up! You may not be THE best, but you can always be YOUR best. And YOUR best is always subjective, that limit CAN be pushed. Just keep holding on! Be YOUR best!
I simply love olympics. So much awe! So much talent, so much inspiration! So many limits to break! There is no epitome to greatness, keep pushing the limits! Its an upward hill, just keep climbing! :D It may be tiring, but hoho, you could really be getting closer to the apex! Just a little Oomph, does it! Just, give it your best shot. No giving up, no giving less than your best!
Soooooooooon we'll become part of the champions! :D come on friends, champions in our own ways! :D
; JAIME! (wants to be olympic worthy!)
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Last year's wishes
♥ 9:31 PM
"are this year's apologies"
today we had some "thankyou" and "sorry" and "i like you because..." during civics.
quite interesting la. but we end up playing a fool in the end. heh heh heh.
but yeah. realised that i'm "enthu" ! :D that's a running trait.
like even in those warm fuzzies from cl camp.
sooo, jaime shall stop having those little fits with herself.
and stop getting into those moods, where she has to drag herself to do things.
also, she shall stop being stupidly pessimistic during training (when it starts)
TRAINING IS GOOD! TOP 20/10 IS BETTER! :D
yes i know its far away, yes i do really want it, okay!
lalala, bio's over. la's over. NO MORE PROJECTS!
HURRAY! fireworks in the airrrr, woooooooooh! :D
okay, time to mug run mug run mug run, oh and prayyyyyyyyy!
haha, i have to start being more disciplined! and stop wasting time.
i'm really tired now ): but still have electives to do! ):
and math math math. its really killing me! ): ): ):
why we have so much work?!?!?! stupid!
national day weekend also no time to study.
(that's cause you were playing la, retard!)
but ya, no time to play + study eh. wth, they think we owls is it.
stupid stupid. take note teachers, we need to study. stop piling.
ESPECIALLY MATHS! like that, i'm not studying for math : p!
haha, took 76 with annabel, bryan & colin today (ABC!)
yay, the longest go home company in a long timeeeee.
as in, bus ride. cause no more pinhui & megan & siewmin to take anymore ):
oh and no more joann either. ): ): mannnnnnnnn!
pretty retarded la, everyday's becoming more retarded. NOT MY FAULT!
okay, have to go.
I CHOOSE YOU PIKACHEW!
peekaaah-CHUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
haha, second childhood secondchildhood!
; JAIME!
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could you tell
♥ 11:37 PM
"from the flames that burnt you down"
does it hurt, to know that i'll never be there?
of course not, you have that girl.
OKAY ENOUGH JAIME.
spent from 10am - 7pm at shumin's house! :D very very funnn! (although not that productive)
we played volleyball that damn retarded computer game and talked to shumin's super cool super cool mother! :D:D:D oh and we filmed our video, did a bit of physics and and and, did the bio project thing. Haha, choosing colours SUCKED, took YEARS. but our presentation looks pretty good. yuppp yupp! :D haha shumin's house was very funny. i had a sudden obsession with the word "rape". anything to do with vivian became rape. AHAHAHA, stay in school until late late, orhhhh he wanna RAPE you. orhhh, he wanna rape you then make you pregnant, then after that have no choice but to marry him! ORHHHHHHH. (: heeeeeeeee. its lizzi's influence! she's the one who always goes, don't get raped! NOT MY FAULT :D
harharhar! :D:D:D:D
my weekend's been. unproductive. yesterday i went to watch money no enough 2, and went to play golf with my dad in a longgggggg time, and yaa, came home tried to do work and knocked out. and on saturday i slumped around the whole day at home. so woohoo, wasted weekend! cl was terrible la. what the hell, why do we bother anymore, the kids hate cl anyway. GRAH. nonono, jaime, you have to persevere. its okayyyy, for god right, not for glory, not for fun. do NOT give up, do not stop trying. DO NOT. cause even trying too hard seems to kill, sooner or later trying harder than too hard will pay off.
So, jiayou jiayou jiayou! :D
haha lalala, its been approximately 9 months since then. and, i have realised that jaime is still very stupid, haha. can you stop being retarded, womannnnnnnn!
jaime, you're not ugly, stupid or untalented. its just that, she's got it. even though, it may just be inadequancy. relax. stop losing faith.
goooooodnight!
; JAIME!
for the world to see
Wish you were;
♥ 11:17 PM
"as the sky is blue"
:D i'm blogging to break the long spell of unbloggingness.
its been one of those really tough weeks which go wham, bam, bam.
tiring, yes i know. but we continue trying! :D
LA's over, left with bio
and a tumultuous amount of homework
was supposed to do work today. but i got tired and fell asleep
and now i'm here. but what do you expect. ONE LONG WEEK ):
at least tmrw's a no lessons day! :D which is so much better!
i'd die if we had lessons!
applied for psl yesterday.
still don't know if its the right choice, cause.
i really don't know if it makes a difference.
and if its worth the time.
what if you realise you can't stand working with people
what if you're not a leader and you're just gonna disappoint yourself.
again and again and again. what if you just don't match up?
okay i should stop thinking, i pressed submit 24 hours ago.
aiyah, its not like i'm gonna get it anyway
(STUPID F^*&^%$#@ COLLEGE DAY)
oh whatever la, we got a new chem teacher anyway :D
i need help for stoichio, anyone wanna helppppppp (:
i treat you uh, haha, banana milkshake.
and, a chance to train your patience.
CAUSE I REALLY DONT GET IT ): ): ):
anyhow.
was trying to suck up to elects teacher today.
and i failed miserably ): haha. okay i should stop trying.
its becoming more spastic/retarded than successful.
goodbye exceptional :/
stayed in school till like 6+?
i finished chem did a little chinese and kinda got caught in the rain
so we waited for it to lighten up.
and then took the bus down.
yess, week break! goodbye friends.
gonna sleeeeeeeeeep (:
; JAIME!
tag replies:
/shermaine: YA I KNOW, she called me crazy ): i'm not okay!
/charissa: heee. :D must try la! if you fail you get experience right? (:
/manu: hahaha, ya. i'm changing the skin soon. haha, after all the stupid presentations.
/novia: agreed! now got twister tooo! we're gonna be twisted with 9876567 things!
/belly: lazy! i just moved from thereee! the skins are boring ! and no tagboard!
/lizzi: what nonsense! no mf! and i'm not spasticer than youuu. who laughs at EVERYTHING? youyouyouyouyou :D
/zf: the tests were hard la, going going goneee. ELECTIVES! :D ey, we must get exceptional!
happy national day + olympics!
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time of my life;
♥ 11:58 PM
"taste every moment & live it out loud"
HOHO, TGIF TGIF!
Week's over, tests over.
Oh wait, still have physics SPA ):
Screwed chem, LA's a mess. And hoho, goodluck to you jaime!
I hope, I don't screw anything else. I NEED TO MUG!
Our class' new obsession is the beach ball which we vball (and I "tennis") with!
Hahaha, technically, its sakif's. But, now its v13's! :D
Our class is super playful laaa, first was chakteh, then cup stacking, then a brief period of aeroplane flying, then soccer, then vball(and tennis for me, HAHA!)
Ho welllls, at least we have fun! :D Lots and lots and lots of fun.
Okay, so today. We had lessons and all, and EA. Which I shall not comment about.
Before EA we got labeled. I am the ridiculous rumbling -.- haha, at least I ain't pseudo good(CHARS!) or naughty compound (VIVS!) :D heeee! Told you I good girl already whatt! And then after school shumin and I went to esplanade library to study( do chinese homework! :D) And ZOMG the library is very very very very very cooooool. And after the library I went for CL, and cl was cl. And, I'll try my best and we'd put in as much to be the best (:
Like hoho, this week was just okaaay! :D Nothing much to blog about though.
So, people who are coming here to see updates, sorry! There isn't much.
And if you wanna come here and read scandals and stuff, haha wrong place laaaa.
My personal life is like totally zeeeeeero. (: Just the way I like itt!
Ack, the blogger font I'm typing this in is very ugly, but whatever. Gotta get used to it.
And I think that God gives me what I asked for when I see its full purpose. Like when everything's over. And its good, cause I don't get confused and knee deep into trouble. I mean, I've made 2 mistakes that I really was silly to make. But then again, if I didn't make them, I wouldn't be here, right?
Got a lengthy to do list. D: Grahhhhhhhhhhhh. I need to sleeeeep! ):
Oh, and just in case. There is really NOTHING going on in my life at this point in time that is by teenage standards of "interesting", don't anyhow infer. I AM A GOOD GIRL!
Okay, have a great weekend. Yes, I'm going to change the blogskin because its hard to navigate for you people, yesss.
; JAIME! :D
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